i wish i could forget

the look in your eyes

as you screamed at me

that you wanted me to die.

i wish i could forget

the expression on your face

as you shook your head

and you called me a disgrace.

i wish i could forget

the edge in your tone

when you blocked my number

from the contacts in your phone.

i wish i could forget

the troubles you've brought,

as you left me to fester

alone with my thoughts.

i wish i could forget you

as you've caused me so much strife-

i wish that you had never even

entered in my life.

but should i have forgotten

and left you on the shelf?

or did these problems that you make

help me learn anout myself?

i guess i'll never truly know

if you were good for me

but all i have to say

is please, just leave me be.

I wish I could smash my head

against this wall

enough times

to scramble the memories

Of you and me.

I wish I could

cut into my skin enough

to suppress the pain

you put me through.

I wish I could

peel you off my skin

but your hands are permanently tattooed

on my once smooth skin.

I wish I could forget

all the nights the sun faded

and the monster inside of you

rose.

I wish I could forget

the feeling of

terror seizing

My everything.

My muscles

Numb

My heart

Too terrified to beat

My eyes

Too scared

To shed my fear.

I was a glistening

Statue...

And you a sculptor

chipping into my soul

Like I was yours to own.

I wish I could forget

what you did to me

But instead

I forgot

That You were once

a human I used to love.

Paper-white parchment, awash in black

Heartstrings, unraveled, to tie the sack

Buried where springtime awakes lilac

Past out the window — no looking back

Saliferous tears scream and break the

panes

Ventriloquial pitch seeping violet veins

Shift, shape and spell out each, spilled like grains

Recollecting ‘forgotten’ thoughts, each refrain

A caravan of memories

Blurred by abundance of passing time

travels through my mind

constant, without any ease.

Whenever the push is more

I cocoon myself in desperation.

Isolating and crying over it

Sometimes cherished by its fragrance

But lately I'm in lose,

far from any radiance.

Always despised the idea

of being in it.

But life has peppers and salts

It would drive my caravan

Just like the passing time

Without sugars, candies or a drink of wine.

Do they reside in me

or I reside in them?

Either way I'm living

not ideal

Firstly, building my own caravan

Later being crushed under its wheels.

I don’t pay you to think.

Optimism is foolish.

People are terrible.

The world is going to shit.

You won’t succeed if you do it that way.

If it’s fun it isn’t work.

Appearance is everything.

There’s no way that’s possible.

You’re not going to make a difference so why even try?

Keep your head down.

Don’t make waves.

I wish I could forget that I was happy once; that I could feel emotions. I wish I could forget the adrenaline rush after winning a badminton match; the regret I'd feel on finishing second in class. I remember being absorbed in the magical world of books. That is a distant memory now. If only I could forget.

Wasted years spent on a person you loved with all your heart and soul. You trusted this person. They turned your love into hate to gone. Married to a narcissistic vampire who used you for his supplemental needs. Creating a mirage of beauty people think they see. That he's the perfect husband and your the fool. Finally, coming to grip's with the truth that he never loved you like you loved him anyway. The proof is in the pudding to how he treats you. Giving you every excuse in the book to why he's not wearing his wedding ring (wore mine's faithfully). "Not anymore." Hurt's like hell because you gave it your all. He striped everything from you that you live in this gray area. You see through all the bullshit now. You don't try anymore nor do you care what the outcome will be. Every-time you see his face you wish you could erase that day and wish you never ment him at all. Just frustrating as hell being married to someone you use to love.

But, since this prompt only asks for one, then I will make it count:

I wish I could forget the fact that one day I'll lose my mom, and I will need to step up and raise my siblings. I wish I could forget that it will cause me the most unbearable pain, inevitably taking my life by broken heart. Today, Kobe Bryant and one of his beautiful daughters passed, alongside her teammates and some family members. Revisiting that event multiple times throughout the day had made my heart more and more fragile. I could cry myself to death losing the two people I love in this entire world. The two people I pray I have again so selfishly in the next life. Such a tragedy. What is left of my shattered heart goes out to all involved, and I pray that all souls rest in peace.