Spinning deeper

Into confliction

To take my life is my own decision

Up till now!

You put a knife to my throat

Destroying my hope for a new love

Well I’m not letting you take control

This is my mind

My choice

My love

My hate

And who are you to fucking rape my future!

This heartache

Has left me so hollow

I only yearn

For another's embrace

For years I’ve tried

And infected others with my loneliness

Melancholy shining

Through my eyes

All the pain around me

This is what I died for

Oh god not again...

The sickness that you wrote

Engraved into

Every inch of my skin

Will finally be

The death of me

What has finally

Become of me…

Seeds of eternity

Sprout from my consciousness

And with this newfound sense

Of transcendency

I fear belonging

In the garden of man

Astral Projections

Clouding the taste of reality

Omnipotence

A gift to the man who knows his worth

Sight fogged by visions grandeur

Lives grown catatonic

Death casts a lecherous stare upon those

Whose eyes are drawn towards the sky

Eulogies given to those undeserving

Their words food for the cynic

A sirens call coercing them into twilight

An elevated state of mind

Sinking into the everblack

Devoid of empathy the goliaths fall

The dead congratulating their descent

Over and over again

To the music we dance

Oh apathy

Dressed in pale silk

Bless this world with your misery!

I know the shadow you cast

All too well

So let others see

The suffering one experiences

When eternity is but a moment

And a fleeting heartbeat casts your hopes to the sea

I beg for sight

Won't you open my eyes

For just a moment

A moment of clarity...

A moment in which I can see

Through the gray In which I am drowning

For every star

In the sky

There's a reason I wish you were here

And with each cloud that closes in

I lament my sorrow evermore

O’ I no longer seek salvation in your memory

I merely wish to join you

So for now I will look back

At this life i have lived

And decide whether

To continue in the name of decency

Or set myself free

The touch of an angel

Is not a mere blessing

It’s a miracle

That god graced your life and not mine!

Weep under an ashen sky!

The hell which was my life

I’m at death’s door

And your only killing my pride

I strode across

That field of green

To find you gone

Choked strangled and killed by doubt

A doubt of your true intentions

But I won’t deny

I watched you die

All for the love

Of personal gain

And the worst part

Is I don’t regret

Letting you choke

On a plastic rope

Hung from the branches

Of a tree that you nurtured your whole life