want to have my cake and eat it too

fill up on sweet gestures and sticky lies

swallowing feelings like a dry bread

choking on quick bites

i feel like a bloated whale

ready to explode and cover you in my insides

or maybe just vomit on the floor

i’ve bitten off more than i can chew

all of the other girls

eat whatever they want

sharp ribs and revealing clothes like secrets

maybe i’ll become a skeleton too

I met you in a church

Even though you never believed in God.

You were so young then, you were so young then.

Clocks made our monsters real.

I had never been in love before,

I listened to my name sung on the radio.

Life was far away, unrealized.

People never looked at me.

I wish for a lot of things,

And not one of them was you.

You licked your life off the floor,

You thought about death more than I did.

Babe, I know, love is a funny thing.

Heretic Jesus lays with his Marys.

I was alone once, and I will end that way.

Understand that angels will bid goodbye.

You will eat your words,

The first and third should taste of you.

You came dancing through the telephone.

I just can’t be alone, I just can’t be alone.

A metamorphic paradise,

Clearly I’m a contradiction,

I lost myself out there, so don’t ask me,

I’ve gone insane.

I can’t do the things I do,

I don’t want to do them.

I can’t breathe without my lungs,

I can’t live without you.

I want to go home even when I’m home,

I want to be safe from everything.

Held in your arms, the night doesn’t feel so cold.

The hole in my head grows whole.