i don’t like my dad

he yells at me too much

and claims that he wants in

and that he will try to help

But when I try to tell him

About the demons in my head

He claims that they’re not real

And he tells me to get out of bed

stop being a pig

wash the dishes

because I take advantage of him

and when I try to explain

that that’s not how it works

He tells me that I need to stop

talking back

I tell him I have rights

he says “no you’re just a kid”

sorry but that’s life

stop complaining and take your meds

apologize

to your mom

you raised your voice at her

you can’t defend yourself

please just let me tell you first

that you are such a failure

you’re not trying your best

I’d tell you what comes next

but I’m sure you can figure out

That he yells some more

I cry a lot

and then it starts over

i could tell you

over and over

how i wish I was in your arms

all the time

as close as possible

holding you and you holding me

we don’t have to talk

or move

or do anything

I just want you

with me

for a while

and tell me that

everything will be okay

because you’re here

and i am safe with you

as long as I need to be