over him

he's just so boring

I don't even know him that well

cuz usually i like a guy

we become friends

i realize he sucks

rinse and recycle

there's nothing wrong with him on paper

funny, ridiculously smart, self aware

but i don't know

he just doesn't seem like a person

like nothing behind the eyes

is he too smart?

he's nice and understanding

but i think he's too smart for me

near perfect SAT: no prep, 4.0, took my junior year math in seventh grade

like he isn't even an ass about it

but it just feels weird

and he's so boring

he just doesn't like anything interesting

and he doesn't know what to talk about

and we have nothing to talk about

the dynamic is off

no shitty banter

no joking

no saying things we could get canceled for

I think I mentioned him to my friends like twice

and he doesn't like me at all

i'll deal

but it was one sided at best

desperate at worst

immediate connection

slow painless fade

I don't even know why I liked him

usually it's a yoyo

a conflict

do i like him? am i over it?

usually I would mourn my feelings

what could have been

but i feel nothing

liking him just felt unnatural

like I knew it could never go anywhere

and its all gone

he doesn't suck

he's just a guy I know

and im okay with that