stress

You'll never see it coming

It's sneaky

The feelings build and build

Until your a bomb ready to blow

A few many things on my todo list

A few upcoming tests

A few too many voices telling me my friends hate me

And all I can do is stare at the wall

It's melting

It towers so big and high

And now it's falling down

Falling down on me

I can't breathe

What do I do?

Where do I start?

Why am I crying?

The world is spinning

It won't stop

And it keeps going on

It's going on without me

I can't keep up

Seven assignments

Too many topics to study

Too many unknown thoughts

I can't even move

I can't even find a beginning

A place to escape

This madness in my head

Like a swarm of bees that won't stop buzzing

Like a traffic jam that won't stop honking

Like a moment when everyone keeps trying to get your attention

Like a moment when you're lost in a big crowd

There's a voice

What's it saying?

I can barely hear it

At the back of my mind

'They don't like you'

'Oh you are annoying'

'It's never going to end'

'You don't fit in with them'

It's taking control of my head

All I hear is that voice

It's put me in the passenger seat

Only being able to be dragged along

It makes my decisions

Or leaves them to be thought over for days until I breakdown

It doesn't do any work

Only leaving trouble wherever it goes

But I'm not sure what todo

The voice is me now

It's all true right?

Everything it says

They hate me

I'm annoying

This will never end

I don't fit in

It's like I'm falling through a nightmare

It never ends

It goes on and on

Meanwhile all I'm really doing

is staring at the wall.