Headaches

I look around

What do I see?

A life that wasn’t meant to be

I look at myself

Don’t like what I see

A broken body served to me

What did I do?

What did I say?

Dysfunction every single day

I find it hard to cope

With my reality

A life I never thought I’d see

This is not my plan

I need you to understand

I’m not where I thought I’d be

Please… kill me

No true love

No true success

Living under full duress

Bones that ache

A brain diseased

No day is left for me to seize

My fantasies

Are all I have

Dreams too far away to grab

Too hard to live

Too hard to die

Never ceasing to ask why

Pity spreads

Throughout my mind

A future that was left behind

This is not my plan

I need you to understand

I’m not where I thought I’d be

Please… kill me

I don’t really want to die

To force them all to say goodbye

Potential is what I must mourn

Just wishing I was never born