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Pen to the Paper 16
Sit down and write without planning. No genre restrictions, no word limit restrictions, no draft restrictions. Have fun!
Ended December 12, 2021 • 20 Entries • Created by CalebPinnow
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Pen to the Paper 16
Sit down and write without planning. No genre restrictions, no word limit restrictions, no draft restrictions. Have fun!
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rlove327

Expiation

You know what inspires shame? A random college playlist of songs illegally downloaded from Kazaa (remember P2P, old folks)? And I do not mean because of the intellectual property theft, because fuck the man - I feel younger just saying that, seeing as I sort of am the man now - but because Nickelback just started playing. For my penance, I am writing till the song ends.

The thing is, "Leader of Man," "Breathe," and "How You Remind Me" are not inherently terrible songs; it's just that once the latter was released, they never wrote another song again that wasn't a clone. I fondly remember paying $10 to see them in concert at the college across the street.

There ain't no shame like nostalgia shame.

And now onto "Popular" by Nada Surf... and my pile of grading...

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rlove327 
I've never done one of these before, @CalebPinnow, but that was a pleasant stress reliever. I needed those three minutes. Thanks for the challenge.
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TomJonas 
@rlove327, Dear Dr. Love, this morning I took a stroll down through the You Tube and listened to these songs, all very teen angsty, but very worthwhile - they do make me remember a time when it was shocking to me that actions lacking integrity could go unpunished. A time when it seemed songworthy to call attention to such shamelessness. Now that I'm old[er] - a child at a dinner this weekend said with adorable honesty, "My Dad says this man in these pictures is you, but I don't think you look anything like him." - I'm sorry to find that actions lacking integrity are so commonly accepted as normal that they're not even noteworthy, let alone songworthy. Maybe that's the irony of becoming "the man?" As you suggest, I, too, can choose my own "penance", and make it something I enjoy rather than a punishment. Well, that's privilege. Note, or maybe even song, to self - Must. Do. Better. If I who have the power to do so will not hold myself accountable, who will? Even before the new year's resolutions, I hereby recommit myself to the knowledge imparted by my most cherished fortune cookie find, "The root of discipline is self-respect." And also to it's opposite, as Abraham Heschel put it, "Self-respect is the fruit of discipline, the sense of dignity grows with the ability to say no to oneself." And also to the words of a modern hero-athlete, Eliud Kipchoge, “Only the disciplined ones in life are free. If you are undisciplined, you are a slave to your moods and your passions.” All of which, ironically, forces me to stop typing and go to work. Thank you, good sir, for another moment of reflection brought on by your writing. : )
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rlove327
It will not surprise you to know, @TomJonas, that even as a college student during the free-for-all "everything should be free because that's the future" phase of internet usage, I still had an ethical rule I applied on such matters: buy any album I still would have bought without the availability of pirated music so as to support the artists. Admittedly, Nickelback never fell into that category... And then a few years later iTunes and the downloadable pay-per-song model changed everything, and for the better, on the whole. I do not miss the days when getting a copy of one song meant paying $16.98 ($30.97 in inflation-adjusted dollars) for an album that usually had filler...
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TomJonas 
True True @rlove327, I'm not surprised to hear that ethic from you. Discipline to what the self wants in the moment, or to a personal ethic, is very different from holding oneself accountable to a community standard - particularly a community standard that isn't personally convenient. In general, however, I hear a lot of "It's not illegal if nobody knows you did it," and "It doesn't matter if you break the law if you're willing to pay the fine." It might be a better example might be to say that "I do what I want," is the motto I hear around me, distinct from "I do what's right." If I do hear someone living out the latter, it's got two more words on the end, "I do what's right for me." It's not really what I think your original post was about, but it got me thinking... now that I've grown up to be "the man," and I really can do whatever I want, will I do what "the man" has always done and take care of "me and mine" or will I discipline that urge and hold myself accountable to community standards that don't serve my personal interests? More poignantly - have we become "the man" that our younger selves would F-bomb?
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rlove327
If I'm being honest, @TomJonas, when I wrote that I "am the man now," I was mostly thinking about how I now wield the red pen in the classroom :) Three-minute, comically-intended rant aside, I don't really think I had a full-fledged "fuck the man" to "I am the man" transition, though I think that's fairly common and an outgrowth of the ego-centered ethos you described--whether held all along or as the result of disillusionment with young ideals. The Boomers were, after all, hippies once.
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TomJonas 
Yep... cycle of violence, cycle of power... It's all too easy to become that which we fight. As penance, I will now buy ($1.29 today's dollars) a downloadable copy of Billy Joel's "We didn't start the fire." Let your red pen flow. Blood on the ice makes great hockey, blood on the page makes great writing. : )
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Huckleberry_Hoo 
I was always “the man”. I was the one who kept my rowdy friends from doing stupid shit and getting killed… but my heart is still drawn to that “screw you” crowd. @Scratch77, thanks for the tag. Good thread.
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