being fallen

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

having to look into the eyes of the one person

whose smile shines so bright that your knees quake

whose presence alone leaves you in awe

when you know they don't even see you

standing right in front of them

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

running around your mess of a room

books papers pens clothes posters

all you're looking for is the journal

you have to find it

otherwise this feeling you're holding onto

this one that you need to write down

this one that you need to remember

will be lost forever

and you can't find the journal in the mess

so you just cry

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

when you can't say how you feel

you cannot dictate those words and speak them

because the second you do everything will fall apart

every word you spoke yes

the words you hand picked so meticulously

thrown away

the conversations the laughter the joy

cast into the arms of violence

just like that stupid feather in Forrest Gump

you'll remember all of it but now it's nothing but a

constant reminder

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

being left behind

your hood is up and you're shielding yourself from the

icy ignorance of the person you love being

happy

without you

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

when you're young and innocent and eager to give yourself away and you

give yourself away

but you haven't yet learned that the most beautiful things in life tend to be

very fragile

so in your blind effort to be happy

and feel worthy

you crush the thing you wanted most

why didn't anyone warn you

that life is so fragile

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

choking down tears with a forced smile

you're digging a hole

so deep that the things you fear will fall so far

and they'll never escape

but you forgot that in this life

losing your balance is so easy

and by the time you realize that you've slipped

it's too late

it's the lowest feeling in the world;

you're lower now than you ever imagined was possible and you're the idiot who dug the hole