Couldn’t Say

Remember that day?

We're soaked in night, splashed with streetlamps.

We stand there forever, talking,

laughs warming the cold midnight air.

And when it was over,

when you turned to go, (because I couldn't bring myself to)

did you see it in my eyes? What I couldn't say aloud;

what I wasn't allowed to say aloud?

This is nice, you're nice, I wish--

I think my own eyes would've cut me off there.

And later, much later, I knew you knew.

I must believe that somewhere in that soul

I know so well you must have figured it out.

Guessed. Because when the time came to

say goodbye, I failed.

I gave you a hug.

Remember that day? I clung to your smile.

I laughed and shook my head.

You meant everything to me. If I didn't have

you I would have had nothing. You kept me

I returned you to an armslength away.

from being alone.

I turned away like I didn't want to

You mean so much to me still.

hold on forever.

I'll miss you.

I walked away, and let the night swallow me.

Goodbye.