it's been over a year now.
they tell me to move on– you're sober now
i find myself wanting to reach out to you
never quite having the courage to try
its been over a year now
i am still afraid to look you in the eyes
still expecting see the same hatred in them
still too weak to say hello
its been over a year now
i still collapse onto my shower floor
eyes closed, breathing jagged
your face burned into my mind
its been over a year now
i see you but i don't recognize you
there's no life in you anymore
the happy memories seem more like a dream
its been over a year now
your name leaves a bitter taste
my body still freezes when you come around
my stomach turns when we make eye contact
its been over a year now
but it feels like yesterday
i've accepted it will never be the same between us
you will never be the same to me