They teach us

"Don't do drugs"

In school.

But why don't they ever teach you

Not to need them in the first place?

I'm only fifteen

And already I crave

The carelessness that comes with alcohol and the

Buzz of mary jane

No, I've never tried them

But that doesn't mean a kid can't dream

Of a better tomorrow,

A better today,

A better yesterday.

I needed this yesterday.

I needed an escape from this hideous hell of a life.

I won't-

Scratch that,

I can't…

Make it to the end.

It's not worth my time, effort

Or the pain.