momentum

molecules of my heart are no longer in motion, they decided to just exist

they won’t expand, they won’t create

it feels that I lost or never even gained

my momentum

I stopped counting atoms of my being

outweighed

by the heavy matter of my pain

I think I lost my basic possibilities

can’t take another leap

in fact, I don’t seem to even understand the notion

and if I won’t jump,

I won’t be able to swim, I won’t flow

and floating to me is the closest way to flying

and I need to fly, so I can breathe

I need to breathe