Cross Roads

Trapped between the love of loyalty, and the ecstasy of desire

The agony of heartache, verses the intoxication of pleasure

The bonds of commitment, to liberation and freedom

These are choices, the counters that lie, so uncomfortably before me

Undecided and confused by feelings and emotions

Challenged by limitations, that which might have been

That which is safe, and familiar, or the risk of the unknown

I have grappled and embraced this struggle

The quandary of decision, the consequences of destruction

The cost to those who are damaged, to all those involved

The guilt of selfishness, the shame of betrayal

All these are the questions, I have pondered for oh so long