Cosmicidal Fascination

Legs numb-boots hanging dumb

Dizzying elevation

Primordial isolation

Panoramic & glum...

My voice is cracking

Emotions straining when

Uttered-evoked

As I down my last bottle

& draw my last toke...

Things arent what they're supposed to be

Social expectations still cling

All overly imposed on me...

Cascading kinetically-

Spiraling rapidly...

Pondering poetically-vividly my misery...

Glass-rock eyes absorb the glow

Of an electric skyline towering madness below...

In an endless second my soul is flaring

Whirlwinded devotion to free-falling motion

After hours flew by idle-vacantly staring...

Ass so cold from

The stoned-gothic parapet

Where my mind is

Frothing & freezing all of it...

'If you think you have issues

Then dude grab some tissues

Nobodie's problems

Scale greater than mine...'

So...

If you feel

Or try & reveal

By layers you peal

In some futile appeal...

Before you go on

Just know man...

This is my moment in time

That no one can steal

My final act

Off stage & for real...

As I claw at the stress

I do so ironically confess:

'I'm talking to myself'

There ain't nobody left...

& there ain't much sense in

Comparing My hell...

A somber chuckle lightens some gravity

Of what lay below-beyond & in front of me

Look up-look down

It's all the same absurdity...

A savored & precious-

Deep labored breath

Where only I can press

The emptiness that I

So rigorously suppress...

Stubborn raging-ever caged in

Life abating-frustrating-hellbent

Fabric flapping-

Winter-winded-

Face slapping-

Neck snapping descent...

The good / The bad

The happy / The sad

I gave all that I had-

I'm spent...

Heap of mortality

Impacting concrete

Pooling puddle of peace

Afterlife complete...

Life & Her Art-

Death deepens Hearts-

Connected / Apart

Connected / Apart...

Infanticide-Homicide-

Ecocide-Genocide...

Deep Inside

My ever loving-looming Suicide...

Worldwide-nowhere to Hide-

Deicide totalling 'Cosmicide'...

Words-words-words

Carefully crafted

& so delicately fabricated

Fom starving Spirits

Abdicated & Emaciated...

Thoughts & Fingers-creatively interlaced

Expressing Lines which are

So often hard to face...

A small push forward-

The Hero / The Coward-

Scurry-hurry

Filthy rats race...

Envy this Object

Falling through Space...