Sunshine

I thought I was on the right track

Turned away from that dark road

Hadn't looked back since

Yet

I never fully left

All I did

Was drift away for a while

I was fooling myself

"I'm on the up and up

I'm happy

I don't want to pop those pills

Everything's fine"

Lies

All of them

I tried to escape

Go to a couple places

Make a couple friends

Post that shit on Instagram

Make it look like I'm

Fine

Lies lies lies

I finally realize my lies

I can't stand to look in the mirror

Even more than usual

My face disgusts me

As I see not myself

But a loser

I don't want to talk

Eat

Write

Play

Listen

I want to sleep

Because it's as close to death

As I'm

Willing

She's a beautiful

Lustful

That temptress calls me closer

Every

Single

Night

And sometimes

I want to call her embrace

But I'm too much a coward

To walk into her arms

She invaded my sacred space

Somewhere I thought I was

Free

A place with memories

That bridge

With my name written on it

The bottom of that river

Blank

Waiting for my signature

I can't swim well

Not while

I'm being held up

By the one

That won't

Let me go

I didn't know it

We were just friends

Nothing more

Not lovers

Not significant others

But she

Was the one to save a sinner

Her golden hair

Draped down her face

Like rays of sunshine

Her hand

Grasping mine

Not letting me go

Holding on until the end of time

 A forever

She loves me

And I her

She's the only reason

Why I can wake up

And love something

Everything

She's as bright as any star you'll find

That dark sky behind her

But when the morning comes

Her light does not fade

She is

My sunshine

And I

Am proud to call myself hers