FOR CHESTER

I've done all I can do

I fought with everything I had

But now I'm tired

So tired

& I can't keep fighting anymore

Ever since I was a child

I've had this weight upon my back

Demons clawing at my skin

Non stop

A bag no kid should carry

I'm bled dry

& darkness calls

Surely there must be

Something better than this

Surely...

Please don't hate me

When I'm gone

I didn't leave to make you sad

Didn't want to make you hurt

Or cry

I gave you my all

I tore open my soul

You saw the secret parts of me

My hell

My pain & inner turmoil

Some of you judged me

Some of you hated me

Some abused me

& fucking raped me

Violently

I tried so hard

To rise above

To remain unaffected

Untainted

By the bitter aggression

But I never belonged

Never found my place

I lost my voice

My face

I became so Numb

So it's come to this

My December, my end

Please don't hate me

For What I've Done

Just let me rest in peace

In The End

Just let me be me

In the Shadow of the Day

Let me find

Somewhere I Belong

BY: Me (Chanelle Joy)

21st July 2017

©CJ