i’m not sure

i mean what would we be

without each other,

just a mere fraction

of the person we are now;

or is it entirely possible that

we’d still be who we are now.

the thing is, i don’t want to know

what it is to not know you.

you’ve managed to find your

way into my world you shook

things up so that up was down,

and left was right and it seems

to make sense all this irrationality.

it’s illogical for me to make way

in all this disorder,

adding chaos to an already

chaotic mind, and yet i crave it.

falling for you was like

falling into outer space.

the immense void of beauty

and greatness, so expansive

and carefree. it’s almost like

i’m addicted to the lack of oxygen

i need to survive,

you seem to provide something else

and i’m not sure if it’s

good or bad,

but i love it nonetheless.

but you see, i’m afraid of

falling like i’ve fallen before

but against the laws

of science, i’m absolutely

drowning in your eyes

falling in an endless whirlpool

of the emotions you make me feel

it’s a love-hate thing and

it’s beautiful really.

it’s nothing but chaos in

my brain, i’m afraid.

but that’s only for what

i feel for you.

you’re my life line,

and that drives me

to swim ashore.