I would have never...

I kind of always expected you to cheat on me. Find somebody more beautiful and better at cooking. 

But you didn't. 

I thought that each time I threw accusations your way and shouted that you would eventually lose control and raise your fist.

But you didn't.

I thought that maybe one day, you would just leave. Back your bags and leave the crazy lady you married. Because that's exactly what I became. 

But you didn't.

But you did steal my heart.

You loved me hard and strong. Stood by me through all of my irrational behaviour. I loved you all the more for it. 

You changed me. 

I finally felt like I was worth your love. I felt accepted. Needed and wanted. And it was a fabulous feeling.

The day the police knocked at my door and then removed their hats, I knew it was you. I could feel it in my chest. Like you had left this earth with half of my heart. 

I would have never married you if I knew you would make me feel so whole, and then leave me living with shattered peices of a heart.

But I love you. 

Always will.