One Day

One day I'll look you in the eyes

and tell you to get out of my life

One day I'll tell you

how much it hurts that you abandoned us

One day I'll tell you

how much rage it filled me with

But for now I'll have uncomfortable occasional dinners with you

You're already on your third drink when we arrive

When you order another, of course I'm not surprised

One day I'll tell you

I don't want to meet you anymore

I'll tell you that you set up a path of disaster

You never knew how to be a father, you still don't

But for now I'll give you empty smiles and thank you as you use your money to attempt to gain my affection

I'll stand there as my stomach turns while you put your lips on my cheek

One day I'll tell you

I never wanted the money

I only wanted my dad

I wanted him to learn how to be my dad

But for now I'll sit back as you ask about my life

Asking things a dad should know

You just hand me more money as if that will rid you of your guilt

How could you be the first person to hurt your little girl?

That shouldn't have been you.