I hate that I

I hate that I smile when you laugh

I hate that I laugh when you speak

I hate that I find myself staring

I hate that I find myself caring

I hate that I feel sad when you do

I hate that I hurt when I see you

I hate that I bury my thoughts through you

I hate that I find my peace beyond you

I hate that I cant find a better sadness

I hate that I find peace in sadness

I hate that I found you

I hate that I love you

So does that make me you're fool?

Cause I'd hate it if I did.