I’m surrounded by people, yet still alone.

I know I have to talk to them, but I just... can’t.

Why can’t I breathe?

In my life so far, I have only had 2 Anxiety attacks.

January 2016- I was a barrel when my anxiety attck came on out of the blue. I was having a hard time breathing and my horse wouldn't go in the arena. He felt that something was off. He backed into a corner and Patti, my friend, noticed what was going on with me. I had gotten stiff. I didn't remember anything from the time I went to go in until I actually walked in on foot and ran my horse.

A Few Months back- I was at my work, sorting peanuts and there was 8 of us in a room the size of a small bedroom. I felt myself having a hard time breathing and my wrists started getting stiff. I Ran outside and tried walking it out. My boss seperated me from everyone else and I stayed a lot calmer.

By the way... Anxiety Attacks aren't fun at all.