Rigidify my insides.

Accelerate my heartbeat.

Burn my skin pink.

Looking for a hole to crawl into and die. 

Heart sinking, 

Stomach churning,

Head hanging,

I want to disappear.

The lies you have strung,

I wear like a cardigan.

Falling over backward

in office chair

with dress above head.

Standing on a welfare line

Snap benefits denied, hungry.

Face muscles move on whilst mind replays the moment. Repeatedly.

Tomorrow it will be alright but right now it's not.

Every step is an insult, a knife in my gut.

Let me dissolve 

into this blemish burned 

onto my spirit