I wish we were strangers

Former best friend and I

I yearn for your presence

Feel you by my side

To wake each morning

To tell you goodnight

I hope for a day

When I can return

Before things got messy

Before it turned

Before I changed

Before you learned

Of all the things I did in my room

I wish we were strangers

But above all this

When you left in a huff

I wish that I never

Had fallen in love

"Your life is not your own. Keep your hands off it." - Sherlock (BBC)

"But what if everyone saw? What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw? Or would they hate it too?" - Dear Evan Hansen, Words Fail

"You always told me stars would guide me back home. Although, they only show at night." - Liz Robinett, Irony (English version)

EXPLAINATION

These are some of my favorite quotes because of how hard they hit me when I heard them. The mental impact was so powerful that it caused a physical reaction.

They found it

We're free

No more sadness

No more fear

No more anger

A single dose to drown it out

Pure elation

Endless joy

Horizons dawning into light

Rays of sunshine burning bright

But all this cannot last forever

With no day there is no night

We may be happy now and always

At what cost?

I just want everything to be alright

If it could be that'd be sublime

But I know life doesn't work like that

trust me

- - -

mother hates me

grandmother dead

ex-boyfriend destroyed my innocence

so I try and tried to cut it all away

escape the endless cycle of eternally grey

but nothing seemed to let me go

anxiety coming through the windows

- - -

and in the end it never mattered

nothing ever really mattered

nothing will matter

just dawn the mask over your eyes

your smile is the best disguise

Peer into eyes that touched my soul

Through broken spiderweb cracked window panes

Hidden deep within blue seas

And fields of green

There you are

with me

Free

Standing amid a field of bees,

I gaze upon the rising dawn.

Sunlight streaming on their wings,

Twinkling ’round a nearby fawn.

She twirls the dances ’round and sings,

but fails to hear the quiet rings.

Clouds above and thuds of trees

each unsure creature to their knees.

Falling footsteps come along

No longer is the sanguine song

As a child

I loved her

She would always support me

I was dead wrong

I know better now

Can't you do any better?

I tried to improve myself

Get off your lazy ***

I tried to be perfect

I'm so sick of you

I failed

She never loved me

Am I good or evil?

Happy or sad?

Peaceful or violent?

Kind or mean?

Am I free or imprisoned?

Insignificant or superior?

Brillant or obscure?

In my heart is there blinding light or endless darkness?

Empathy or apathy?

Calm or anxiety?

Is my mind pure or tainted?

Full of psychopathic tendencies or normal habits?

Power or weakness?

Black or white?

Who am I?

I am grey.