Looking at you trying my best to be a good girl. We hold a conversations like grown adults. But if you only knew the thoughts inside my mind I can’t help it but to think and now my mind can’t be at ease. In the night as I lay alone in my bed thoughts of you run in my head. I close my eyes I imagine your hands slowly running up and down my hips. I get ready to feel every inch of your soul . this dream is just getting started in my mind your in control so I’ll let you take it nice and slow

She used to be happy and free she was blinded by what she thought was the one . Now her days are dark and from a distance I see her fall. She curls up in the darkest corner of her room and she silently cries and vents out with her head up to the sky she tells God how can this be. As much as it hard to believe she continues to pray for him more than asking for her self. I hear her voice and each word she speaks you can feel her pain the hurt of giving her heart and love to someone who broke her heart and shattered her self esteem. Now she knows it’s time to let go and be finally free.each waking day I see her gather her strength and she tells her self it’s going to be ok.I can’t help but try and reach her and hold her but she’s so defensive with out a doubt. But it’s the price other’s pay for what the one who said they care caused .her walls are built higher than before and she don’t believe in words and actions only go so far. She writes her heart out what’s left of it hoping that she can see the light and everything can be alright

One day I’ll be gone for good. Many will have words that wished they said . The ones who claimed that they cared or loved me will seem to remember the good and bad memories. The only thing left behind will be the laughs we’ve shared and when a song plays on the radio that reminds it of me tears will fall from your eyes and see how much I genuinely am. But then I won’t be there to take your call you won’t hear my voice and then regret of leaving a lot unsaid will sink in.maybe some day I could inspire you by what I’ve been thru and how much I’ve had to fight in life, to be loved back and to be happy. Nothing last forever and forever isn’t promised and the all I’ve wanted was a honest genuine man by my side and not to be a forever girlfriend.