Carrots, peppers, apples,

Spinach, okra, peas

Tumble in my salad

Doing as they please.

Olives, chicken, walnuts,

Pickles, dates & cheese,

Somersault with great Gestalt,

Swimming with the beans.

Sprite-sized vistas loom

above each sea scented wavelet, 

I smile, imagine

sand specks are lush caravans, 

as a seashell palace looms.

Your apology spills into 

     my burning eyes

Twisting the knife of half 

     truths and lies

Echoing through my 

     hollow soul

Turning my heart as 

     black as coal

Of this hurt there's 

     no reprieve

Not with coke or dope 

     or weed

Sifting through 

     all my regret

Hoping I can 

     soon forget

You believe there's 

    still a chance

To win me over 

    with a glance

The truth is that you've 

    changed it all

In very fact I've 

    built a wall

It no longer feels 

    the same

You only have yourself 

    to blame

You can't undo 

    betrayal past

It wasn't important 

    that we last

Now I just want 

    you to leave 

Give me space and 

    let me grieve

I deserve the 

    dignity

Of being spared 

    the fake pity

Once you're gone I'll 

    start to heal

Maybe even be able 

    to feel

Something I never 

    thought I'd do

Whatever it takes to 

    get 

       over 

           you.

You've used me up

swallowed all of the pills

in my orange, clear bottle

not even bothering to

read the drug facts

or the label on my side spelling out

a last and first name

that isn't your's.

I'm not your's.

Yet you consumed what was left

of my insides

my heart and soul

delved into your stomach

swimming in your agony

against my will

I had no say

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Kiss me again with your liar's lips

Whisper to me sweet accusations

Prove your love with marks on my skin

I bleed prettier when you hold the blade

Welcome home my love, how I missed you

No one kills me or fills me quite like you

You alone touched the depths of my soul

Tell me you'll stay, you won't leave me again

Or walk away, and never look back

This love replenishes, even as it ravages

Your love feeds me, your love consumes

When tomorrow is clouded by uncertainty

When yesterday's lost in stillborn dreams

We connect when Darkness grows vulnerable

We collide again,

Forever, only at 4 AM

With intensity of love just discovered

In this tomb, on this bed of broken promises

WELCOME TO THE MAZE 

The door changed each time, it mesmerized her eye movements and her thought pattern and shaped it according to her dreams, her nightmares are what the monsters originated from. She had to get out with using just her mind, her wild fantasies pursued her ambitions to get out of the maze.She locked herself in with the world she simply created with her mind and how was she to do that she had to outsmart her own mind if she died in the maze, then she would die in real life. and the doors opened and she ran faster than she ever ran in her life she tripped on a vine it wrapped around her leg and pressed its teeth into her flesh till she bled her blood it sank deeper in her veins and the vine became to slither in her vein the longer she stayed the more she emerged into the maze.

her eyes lost her pale blue color her eyes went clear and subdued

Her skin turned a greenish hue, she puked out a black substanceShe tried to lift off the ground, but the maze became too close on her leg. She tried to wiggle her foot, but she just couldn’t do it. She gave up and her breath escaped her lips as she laid on the ground squinching her eyes as she embraced the impact of the pain her body was going to endure. But instead, a hand placed on the crook of her neck and breathed heavily in her ear “do you wanna get out of here?” and she whispered to the shadow “I do.”

He replied, “would you like to know how?”

She said “yeah.”

He said “use your mind. You control what happens in here.

Push the doors open with your mind.”

She screamed in pain, and she exasperated every strength left in her. She fainted and the door widens and her leg was loose. He picked her up,

And took her to a hut.

The hut was made from the coconut husk and wood

Inside was a tiny little couch and a bed stained with blood

And a table covered in assassin like weapons

And a picture of a family a woman with blond hair stressed out from the artificial sunlight and a man with shaggy brown hair frosted with the dew of sweat from a hards day work

And a little girl with fiery curls and dimed green eyes

The parent's eyes were a pale Blue and the on the left was

A boy whose eyes were lost and alone one eye was a pale blue and the other was brown and his hair was a stressed out blond with blue tips his hair shaggy and long cascades over his face

He laid her on the bed with Blood

She woke up with a sharp pain in her leg

And the vine had wriggled her way into her leg

And her breath was slowing down

And he looked into her eyes

And took a needle and stabbed it in her vein

And she looked up and replied thank you umm her voice sounded dragged out like a cigar to her transparent lips tinted with the fresh dew of sweat from the pain she was endured but nothing like what she was going to experience in the near future

He replied with the annoyance of teenager but his voice aged and tired out by time like he had lived forever trapped in the body of a teen ¨Jonathan¨.

Michelle replied shy and blushed with overwhelming

Unwoken feelings and said ¨ thank you, Jonathan , I am Michelle ¨.

Well Michelle, if we don´t get out of here soon you're going

To become a part of the maze and once you become a part of the maze, you belong to the Maze said, Jonathan

But how do you know so much about the Maze?

Because I have been trying to escape every since

he fiddle around with the picture on the table

And flipped it around

¨Since 2003¨ said Jonathan emotionless it was like he was trapped in the body or someone else like someone was speaking through

Did you come alone or with your family?replied Michelle

¨I came alone,¨ said Jonathan

So how did that stuff come here replied Michelle

The Maze brought it here

As Motivation

The pictures of my family

And the bed with the blood

From the miscarriage of my baby sister,¨replied Jonathan

¨I am sorry for your loss .¨replied Michelle

¨Yeah its whatever, But here's the truth we can only get out with our Minds ,but if the Maze doesn´t feel your strong enough

For the games it won´t let you out, ¨replied Jonathan

¨How does the Maze know if you're strong enough?¨ replied Michelle

The Maze just knows okay ?replied Jonathan

¨Fine whatever,¨ replies Michelle and she slowly dozes back to sleep tired from the events of the Maze

And Jonathan shakes her before she closes her eyes

He says , ¨you can't fall asleep

Your nightmares and dreams will become real

Meaning that whatever happens in your nightmares or dreams

Will happen in the Maze

It will Mess with your head

It will take what you love and care about,

Your memories will be twisted,

And use it against you

Here take these pills

You will still sleep

But with your eyes open.

She takes the pills

And she sleeps with her eyes open

And her eyes roll in the back of her head

Her whites are visible

And she sees a vision

Of a door

A map

A key

Not just a key

But 7 keys

That unlock each door

From the Maze.

Her pupils return back to normal

And she bites her lip

Because she hears the maze

Voice pelting in her

Ear causing her ear to bleed

She drops to the floor

The Maze whispers its voice

In her ear

You feel the pain

Imagine that pain

Dragged through

Johnathan

Chest

If you tell him

We spoke to

You, we will inflict that pain upon him

You are strong enough for the games

Jonathan is not, we need to use

Your mind to end Jonathan

He has been in the maze to long

He has wasted our resources

His mind is weak

And aged

So seal your fate

With the Maze

But here's the secret

If you don´t kill him

You and your mind will belong to Maze

Just like Jonathan

We speak through Jonathan

Her eyes flashed back to white

Her pupils darken and filled

With murder and love

Michelle Michelle

Are you okay? replied Jonathan low and sullen

Yeah I am fine replied Michelle

Flashing a blood-curdling smile

And walked a step ahead of him

And he trailed in the fate of her

Jonathan became like a shadow of her memory

Michelle became the keeper of his memories

The door was opened and they looked out. She was very surprised. He looked very worried. They went quickly to find out more. She slowly picked up the object and it all finally made sense.

You wanna know why you were brought here don´t you

sleep my child and let your mind take you back in time .......

the leaf

crumpled under your feet

whispers

a story of long ago

of lovers

with a promise

to live

’till death do us apart’

entwined

their souls breathed

as one

their hands held

together

dusts of time

gathered

web of lies

woven

dew of tears

shed

the leaf lay

witness

to bloody stabs

of words

unraveled memories

love

torn to shreds

you walked away

guilty

crumpling the leaf

and

me..

There's no space for your fingertips

so let them run and rule

a cold and faithless tool

to the leader and his loyal fool

There's no space for your feet to walk

so let them graze the sun 

or crush down everyone 

for the battle's never, ever won

There's no space for your eyes to see

so let them turn to rust

the essence falls to dust

for a gale or breeze or startling gust

There's no space for your heart to give

so let it fade away

the exterior decays

so the inside lives another day