someone once said the in-between is that state of being awake, but still asleep
he talked about sleep, but i'm going deeper
because i think our lives are the true in-between
we're awake, but asleep, and we know this is a state we shouldn't keep
we don't want to wake up, just yet, we want to fall asleep deeper
no one wants to face the day, the horrors, we're stuck in our minds
live in daydreams, false hopes, old goals
dreaming about a future day, but staying in-between
je ne sais pas - my favourite phrase
모르겠어 - is there even a place
that is not in-between
but free of the nightmare called true life
fraught with tragedies and strife
waiting around every corner
ready to push out all those boulders
to smash and crash our fragile bones
to lash and strike with sticks and stones
in-between, is it what seems?
not the safest place, but the place for me
because the truth frightens me, the future appalls me
i hate what i see, i can't change what i see
if it's the in-between for me, there's nothing else my future can be
do you think i'm a princess
could i be a queen?
i scoffed at the child's dreams
now i sympathize with her screams
who wants to be queen?
she carries the weight of a world
from her bed, all tangled and curled
limbs mimicking a moth's wings furled
don't you love butterflies
catch some with me
i watch the reel in agony
see her walk the same road as me
becoming who she doesn't want to be
where is she who raced after butterflies
who agonized over the simplest goodbyes
who could stand by herself in every fight
which do you think is best:
living or dying - quite frankly i don't see the difference
hey, honey, neither do i - it's true
death is black but living ain't skies of blue
and i seriously haven't got a clue
just curl up and go to bed, that's what i do
you could try it, it might work for you too
but i really don't know what else either of us can do
can't live for dreams, can't live for me
is sleeping all you can think of as a solution for me?
I finally put a name to it
You are my favourite room
I can roam the entire house
It's become a mansion
But in the end, I'll always return to you
I'll curl up in my favourite chair
I'll stare out the window
Violins will serenade, filling the air
And I'll sit there without a care
Watching the sky go from black to blue
You'll remind me not to demolish
Every other room outside this one
Remind me to keep trying
Buy some paint and decorations
Enough fairy lights to circle the world
Please, wrap my blanket around me
After I fall asleep here
You and I both know I will wake up
Tomorrow to my own room
And try to find my way back to you
All or Nothing
There’s a song or a saying that says, “If you can’t be with the one you love, then love the one you’re with.”
In my opinion that’s a pretty crappy suggestion.
If you can’t be with the one you love, then love yourself enough to know you can do better. Why should the one you’re with receive second best or a half-ass kind of love?
No thanks… get to packing if that’s the case.
Sorry For My Unbelief
I thought it could be you and me
I was so certain it could be
I thought that we had chemistry
But there is no room for you, and me
We were so strong together
Thought it'd be a case of when, not whether
Thought we could stay connected forever
Now I know there's no future for us, together
Forgive me for my unbelief
There was so much from you I came to receive
But all of that acted just for me to be deceived
A future for us couldn't be...Sorry for my unbelief
Was everything always this dark?
Or did I just not notice this before?
The light that once led me had died, and I’ve gone astray
Just where am I?
I’ll always be here waiting, you know?
It’s not that I’m moving on, it’s you who is
I’ll always be rooted to this spot until you turn back
So, let's keep each other company, okay?
I’ve always wondered how it’ll feel like to move on
Is it filled with relief?
Today, again, I’m dreaming of that time and dwelling in memories
Old, old, old, memories
The times when we laughed brightly together
The times when we cried sorrowfully together
The times when I didn’t lose my way
But now everything is gone
So, who’s next?
Who will I cherish next?
Is it you? Or you? Or you?
Why can’t I just fall for someone who’ll stay with me forever?
Someone who won’t leave
Someone who’ll always be by my side
Someone who can help me stand up and walk beside them!
Someone who won’t let me be lonely…
Is there anyone out there like that?
Every new verse
must find it path.
It light must shine
the tiniest cracks
of my life.
I might be
putting the letters
in a system.
to the writing
that keeps the
so I can see
It’s you that
in my dream
with the wind.
You are the
not in favor
the fact of the matter is
sometimes you meet the right person
during the wrong time, for one
or for both of you
and you might love them
and im sure they miss you every
night that you're absent from their bed
and i can probably guess that you're
mad at the clock that sits on your nightstand
because the timing was not in your favor
but i regret to inform you that
there is absolutely nothing
you could do about the ache that you
feel for them
because that's how life goes
the one person who could heat up your
entire body as soon as they lace
their fingers in yours
the one person that made you feel
everything and nothing all at once
is not meant to be yours