pain is everything
I prefer extravagant death and fear the Lord.
I don't believe in fear or what I'm afraid of
because everything is terrifying.
I talk to nothing because it listens well.
I stare into oblivion because It’s the only way I can see you.
I write to keep demons out of my head.
I bang my head to invite the pain.
I suffer to live.
I live to find new meaning.
In finding new meaning I found I never had one.
I have fun in meaninglessness,
I find joy in nothing,
I'm nothing until I'm everything,
I prefer my mind to your reality