Why is letting go so difficult?
I honestly don't want to let you go.
You've been this amazing person
who has been a constant in my life.
if I'm being honest,
it's felt one-sided for a long time...
And if anyone else treated me like this,
you'd probably tell me to stop reaching out
because they don't care at all.
But it's hard,
because I still care.
And to even think you don't care anymore
breaks my fucking heart.
I want to hear about your day
and talk about our dreams.
Make plans for the future
and talk about how we would be sensational together
like we used to.
I miss that feeling so much,
that someone cared for me
and wanted to be in my life.
But now, the silence is overwhelming
and I'm tired of trying to hold on to something
that clearly doesn't want or need me any longer.
you were what I needed at the time
and it's time to release my grasp on you.
I think part of me
will always hope
you will reach out to me
and see how I'm doing...
I'll continue to count the months
without a single word.