duality

how tragic, they loved each other

you're a kid, how does it feel

to know so much, and have no words

still a child, happy, excited

paranoid and riddled with insomnia

can abandonment be learned

or am i as terrible as i fear

kicking and screaming

so quiet, mature, a pleasure to teach

now it's clinical

failing, giving up, crying too much

praying to someone dead

feeling everything that keeps me alive

will one day kill me