Trying to push forward even when I just want to do nothing.
Aspiring to be this
Aspiring to be that.
Nothing I try amounts to anything.
I give up.
I start over.
Friends - will they like me?
How do I know?
How do I be authentic?
I just want to retreat into a book.
The characters are like friends, isn't that good enough?
I need to be stronger.
I need to be better.
Trying to find goals I can accomplish.
Trying to find things I want to do, things I won't peter out on.
I don't know what I want to do with my life.
Do I have to pick something?
I know I have skills.
I have skills.
Painting. I can do that.
Theatre -- sound. I can do that.
Writing. I can do that.
Playing drums. Can I do that?
Reading....I'd rather just do that.