if you can’t see it, is it even there ?
i try to find the words to describe what i am feeling, but they do not exist.
they are on the tip of my tongue, but they evaporate before i can spit them out
and i try to scream
but it dies in my throat
before i can make a sound.
i am being choked
but i see no hands around my neck
i am being drowned
but all i see is desert.
my suffering is nonsensical
and yet i suffer.