How I’m Living

I miss the past,

And I’m scared of the future. 

I’ve had so many highs, and so many lows. 

I’m afraid to try to be happy,

Cause it might crash back to depression,

But I’m afraid of letting myself feel lonely,

Cause what if joy was right in front of me while I help my head down.

I’ve had so many highs and so many lows that I don’t know how to feel.

So I guess I’ll just feel numb.