Forgetting

I wish I could forget the entirety of my childhood

All of the judgmental looks I got from others

All of the calls to the front office to explain all of the bruises on my body

I wish I could forget the childhood trauma that caused me to become so hateful

I wish I could forget everything and begin anew

I wish I could forget ever existing for it would bring me peace to not know anything

If only I hadn't been conceived, then I could have avoided my fate

I wish I could forget, but everytime I try the memories come flooding back

There is no forgetting the catastrophe of my life

there is no forgetting, but I wish there was a way for me to forget