Self-love. Where do I even begin.
We are brought up to hate such insignificant parts of ourselves.
Raised to search for someone to fix us and make us whole.
We wander aimlessly, looking for someone to fill that void,
to give meaning to our lonely existence.
What we don’t realise, until later in life, and some people never realise atall,
is that the person we are supposed to be with, is ourselves.
Our relationship with us and who we are is the most important one of all.
The only person you will have to spend the rest of your existence with,
So why do we compare, why do we pick ourselves apart and tear ourselves down.
This only leads to picking others apart, and tearing other people down.
Leaving us all fighting against eachother, and ourselves.
We need to join hands, join forces, take a stand together.
We need to take back what is ours; our right to love and be loved.
Our right not to look in the mirror and wish we were different people, in different bodies, facing better things.
How many people hide behind screens, telling the world that they are the best, they are okay, more than okay, infact they’re doing great. We don’t share the bad, and we should.
We need to open up the platform for sharing everything, not just the good, but the god-damn-fucking bad. The stuff that keep us up at night, with heart-wrenching cries that we shove into our pillows and try to hide.
It has taken me years, and years to come to my conclusions.
It has taken horrible things to make me see; to bring me around to the otherside, and ease my delusions.
I am not ashamed to say that I love myself. I am great, and I am perfect for me, just the way I am. I’m still healing, still growing, and it’s ok to change. We’re not supposed to stay the same. I take each day as it comes, and try to fill myself with as much love as I can, sharing the excess love that I hold for myself with others,
but knowing that love for myself comes first.
Ofcourse, I still have bad days, where it’s hard to see all of the things that are positive for me. I feel waves of hate, and self-loathing, and intrusive thoughts creep in.
I try to let them sit, as I know they will pass. These sour feelings won’t last forever.
I will always make it through.
I have stopped comparing myself to others, because I think that can be the worst part.
We are different. We are made up of the same things, but with so many contrasting combinations. We have lived different lives, and shared different experiances.
Someone once told me, there is no such thing as truth, and this has stuck with me.
We can all be watching something unfold, at the same time, from the same place, but we are all taking something different from it. What I see, will not be what you see. What I take from it, will not be the same as what you take from it. We look for different things, and relate them to our own experiances that we have collected over time.
I think this is wonderfully fascinating, and can make for some of the most beautiful shared moments with others.
I stopped justifying myself at every chance. Feeling the need to explain my reasons fully, for every action I took. It would fall on deaf ears, who had made their minds up anyway, and I would be the only one that hurt.
It dosn't matter what they think, I am definitive in my actions and my choice of words. I am happy in my choices, so I let people take what they want to take, because i can only take for myself.
Self-love isn't just about sinking down into a deep bath and wrapping yourself in balmy, glowing steam; it sure helps, but it is so much more than that.
I take time, to do the things that make me truly happy. I put my boundries up, and check in with myself on a regular basis, to make sure I'm doing what's good and right for me.
I share my feelings with those closest to me, to open the lines of communication, so we can all be more aware of ourselves and eachother.
It is honestly one of the most exquisite journeys. I don't think I'll ever reach a 'destination', because this is the most important part; the growing and changing and how you choose to live your life in any given moment.
Enjoy it, because as far as we know for sure, we only get one life, and it is yours alone, to do what you will. It has been solely, and uniquely hand-crafted for your experiance.
You are special. You are great.
You can be, whoever you want to be.
Love yourself. Be yourself.
The rest will unfold as it's supposed to be.