Today I realized that family can sometimes be unpredictable.
You believe that they are on page with you, but later on you realize that they are not.
It’s hard being 19 and living in your parents house, yet sometimes you feel a sense of security when you live with them.
I have struggled sometimes living with my parents because I want to be my own man, be independant at the finest state.
I have one freind named Anna who believes in me, and never disappoints me, she has said I am not disabled in any way and i can reach any platform in life.
She is my joy and inspiration, and is a God given gift who I never want to be without in my life.
My parents believe that i’m not ready for the big life ahead of me because I missed my medicine a couple of times, which in fact i was in a hurry.
Lets keep in mind I been trying my hardest to be the most responsible man i can be to prove that I can be independant to my parents and my family.
I have been giving my parents the uttermost disrespect these 3 years in highschool.
Now that i’m a senior and I have a month left of highschool, I have realized it’s time for me to grow up and be my own man.
I’m worried about my future and it’s bringing me into tears because mom wants to put me in supervised housing where people come in and check on me.
Also I been put in a career development class where they teach me how to do a job, which the job i’m doing is too easy, and in fact I can do it in my sleep. After I graduate I will have to come back next year, Which is going put me in a state of depression.
Lets also keep in mind that my Dad has said to just finish out the school year because we may head back home to Auburndale. This my only last hope of being a free independant adult.
I want to go to the California Institute of the Arts to get a animation degree, and also get a bachelor in buisness.
I love my parents and my family dearly but I wish they knew how I felt, without precieving that I am manipulating which I regret doing my whole life.
Only time will tell how my future will be, but I will do whatever I can to reach the point to where I want to be.