Life is bitter, but still I want to drink it!
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I started thinking about global warming and artifical intelligence. Its not so far way, it waits us around the corner. Which jobs will survive then im asking myself?
a lot of IT jobs. Here i find myself in graphic design, but im really not so interested in doing that For the rest of my life.
For global warming.. maybe some jobs that offer infiltration and jobs for the state. Like military, police, politicans, doctors.. that always is useful.
i dont wanna do any jobs for the state.
i dont wanna have a career. I just wanna be free, live like Tarzan and Jane in Blue lagoona movie and have money Falling from the sky.
She asked me why..
she asked me
why i dont do small talks
i said i never was person who does that
she ashed me why i dont do it if i want it
i said its because i dont realy care about all those people around me
i feel miles away from them..
they are all old people
old croatian people
im realy far away from that
im non-planet earth girl
i even live miles away from my best friends
i want other things
i dont talk about shopping
about hair saloons
and hows the wheater
i have real problems
its my spiritual life
its ecological zero waste thing
they wouldnt understand
i hope they will
i wil stay inside myself
and wait a couple of centuries
so other ppl will come to the same line with me
i will already be
far away into the woods
with weapons, fire and cave home
i will eat wild animals,
humans even, if needed
and they will finally achive to be vegans
who cannot survive this struggle
this strugle of global warming
its the war for survival
the thoughest will survive
and oneself doctors
i dont care
i know the way
thats why..im in a war with everyone.
I started following one local place hashtag on instagram just to see if somebody has went overthere without me :(
Sometimes at night
I go out to the park alone
I sneak around slowly
Theres a feeling inside me
That makes me untamed
Wild like an animal
Chasing the prey
There is also fear
To be chased by a lion
I jump on tall trees
I climb to the rocky walls
I jump from altitudes to the ground
Like my life depends upon this
If i dont do it im dead
Thats what motivates me
Thats what triggers me
To move on
To entertain oneself
Its the hunt itself
Hunt for survival
Even u said no and broke my heart,
I hope to see you again
In a piece of art.
I love u boy why dont you come
are u crazy
whatsup with u whats up with me
why i even like u?
i should not be bothered
i cant stop thinking about last night when i saw u,
when u came so inadvanced, incredible
whats the fucking name??
oh boy get out of my mind leave me alone
where do u sleep tonight ?
is everything a lie?
who am i to obly ?
omg whats this word even about?
we are untouchable,
my words are useless when i cant speak them,
pls come and kill me with ur gun
i know u have it because u wear ur golden necklace all the time
Skyblue eyes Bo
I started dreaming about u recently.
That means its been along time
since you inhabited my subconscious
And its been even longer since I saw you for the last time.
My dreams love you,
You're always the one that likes to be seen and who
Is a new love for me to achive with.
I started daydreaming about you and me
On the top of the roof of my old garage laying on the sun
Listening to the spring,
looking at the sky,
Drinking hibiscus tea and
reading psychology books..
You stopped being gay since u met me.
From the moment your eyes saw mine for the first time
I knew theres something about you.
That was the moment you entered into my mind forever
And I cant let u go.
There is still hope I will see u again..
One day, one moment,
I will take u by the hand
Behind the bushes we will melt
And finally become
one of my sweetest dreams
And I ask myself; who you would like to be with, dear,
locked in four walls?
Would you like him maybe?
Or the one that kept you like gold in his hands?
You also think of that little one who has a gift for music..
Or would you prefer that rich man who pampered you with his touch?
Whom are you waiting for, dear, tell me, why are you alone every night?
Share your secrets with someone now
just to bring restlessness and longing to life.
The present moment will then stop,
You will ably step into the ship of your own fortune
Which will take you far away to tame the waves together
And watching sunsets every evening
While the waiter is pouring you wine
While the lips are warm, they merge.
Tell me who you dream about, who do you want?
Surrender me your peace,
Don't give me yourself,
Hold it, take it
Embrace me, dear!
You will rip me apart
Take away everything we have
Just bcs you havent put effort
You wanted to be in peace
And smoke your cigarettes with coffee
With last money you own.
Then your crisis will come smashing my doors
Begging me to buy you your sweetest dreams:
Cigarettes and coffee.
When I say I wont, its
''Coffee or cigarettes,
Cigarettes or coffee,
One must be or I shall die!''
Maybe even better if you shall die
Ill get my own peace with any effort.
How nice this life is!
Teaching me what others have done erroneously
And giving me the same lessons
which are difficult to resist re doing.
Thank you thank you thank you !