Fiction—The ink on his arms
[Wrote this my senior year in high school. I was kind of an emotional mess.]
As he showered from another day,
the ink on his arms was washed away.
It'd been left by friends with ecstatic pens
who in excitement had been carried away.
One wouldn’t rub off no matter how much he scrubbed,
drawn by a girl whom he had once loved.
Child of the Night
There's a hole in my heart
torn by a bullet
it ripped me apart
and left me in shreds
I've never felt so lost
the pain is deep
I can never sleep
my bottled up tears
my pillow swallows it all
it feels my pain
muffles my cries
I wonder if anyone
could understand
who am I
and what have I done
I don't think I can ever again
face the Sun
and the Earth it cries
along with me
there's pollution in her skies
like the pollution in my eyes
and rest assured
she holds me tight
the child of the stars
the child of the night.❋
Stories
Black and red,
Dark hair,
Dark story.
Blonde, pink and dumb,
Golden hair,
Golden story.
Our faces aren't our stories,
Our looks do not define us,
And we are more than what we seem,
We are more than what you dream.
Teenage Angst
I am not easily offended
However
There is one thing I need to mention
That really needs to change
Because I'm between 13 and 20
All of my problems have suddenly
Become not worth being taken seriously
And if I try to express how I feel
I'm a cheesy, angsty, emo girl
A stereotypical drama queen
Way out of touch with reality
All my emotions can just be ignored
"It's hormones; this wouldn't happen if you slept more."
You think all of my problems
Are made up inside my head
Maybe that's somewhat true,
But understand I'm still in pain
I cannot just "suck it up"
I am suffering from the condition of
Emotional phantom limb
But still, I think the worst part is
Sometimes I wonder if I am
Stupid for caring about something
Do you know what?
I don't need proof
I'm not in court
Here's the deal, plain and simple
If I feel it, then it's real
Liars
I don't know what's worse
The fact that we're both lying to each other and we know it
Or
The fact that we're both okay with it
~ Elex Gray
still a teen, still angsty
I've been trying so hard,
To stay on my feet
I've been trying so hard,
To let the colors in
I've been trying so hard,
To not reach out and push the strand of hair away from your face.
I've been trying so hard,
To let the words break me
I've been trying so hard,
To let you cushion my fall
I've been trying so hard,
To let the time fly by
I've been trying so hard,
To get back in sync
I've been trying so hard,
To find a cover to recover
I've been trying so hard,
To keep every memory
I've been trying so hard,
To be what you like
I've been trying so hard,
To stay alive.
A teened teen
Scars and marks grace her skin
they ornate it like stars on a clear sky
There's a void in her heart
And in her soul
An emptiness, a block,
That tears her apart
breaks her will
Something no one could ever fill
something that she hopes to conceal
Muffled voices in her head,
Struggling to be known and heard
And in her innocent heart,
Abode secret hopes, hoping to come true some day
She's not brave enough to forget or let go,
But not enough weakness dwells in her heart to make her quit
Her feelings, her emotions,
Sheer things she hopes no one to fathom,
A misted mystery, she's sure, she is, no one would ever care to decipher.
Do test scores define me?
Hurtful as could be receiving the deadly D
Teachers should preach
Test scores are everything
Is it possible I'll never be what I want to be
The anxiety builds in me
No colleges will ever want me
How is it possible twelve years of education
Only to be let down with a certification
Society wonders why young teens
Suffer from anxiety and depression
We're set up to only be judged by test scores
Nothing more
It’s partially an expression of my teenage angst, but mostly it’s a moo cow
I'm a square peg
that never will fit
I'm the invisible boy
no one will miss
I'm not popular
nobody knows my name
But they are quick to notice
if I have crooked bangs
My clothes are hand-me-downs
I'm not good at sports
While the prom king and queen wear plastic crowns
Mine feels like it's made of thorns
"Why are you so sad?" they implore
"These are the best years of your life"
Best is a relative term for sure
I've never been the grateful type
Ten Steps to Recover From a Broken Heart (teenage angst challenge)
Step 1: Apply pressure to the damaged area. Cover the wound with statements that you know are false like "I'm ok" and "I never loved her anyway" in an attempt to stop the bleeding.
Step 2: Pick up the pieces of your broken heart off the ground and attempt reconstruction. WARNING: There will be missing parts! Such as your ability to trust another human being. The final product will resemble a half finish jig-saw puzzle.
Step 3: Search for your missing dignity in the wreckage of a relationship that once was.
Step 4:Smuggle your tears through the the daily grind of your everday routine. This is crucial for recovery, since the shedding of tears is the cleansing of wounds.
Step 5: The pillow you once held, imaging as if it was the soft curves of her fragile body is now your enemy, and in this war against your emotions you cannot sleep with the enemy.
Step 6: Whatever is left between you and her must now be kept strictly professional, so stand tall and walk straight as if her departure didn't crush every bone in your body.
Step 7: Learn to hide your feelings behind a mask of hypocrisy and cheap jokes.
When she asks you how you are doing proceed to tell the biggest lie in human history and reply "I'm good". All the time spent lifting weights could never have prepared you for the weight of the words that you're struggling to hold back.
Step 8: Forgive and Forget. Emphasis on forget.
Step 9: Avoid listening to The Script, The Fray, and Sam Smith.
Step: 10: Repeat.