I said nothing as everything I never knew cascaded from their lips like rain water from the gutters sputtering as a flood of confessions destroyed the damn I never knew I'd built around the tiny town containing the tears I'd never told and as their ocean of pain infiltrated my pond of Dead Sea ache I could feel myself rolling with the waves of our mutual heartbreak and when our lips collided it was less like the glaciers I was used to and so much more like an earthquake

two tech tonic plates never intended to be brought together creating a catastrophe, pure entropy, with nothing but a black hole between our bodies we were sucked in and before either of us knew it we had drowned and the sea of our tears turned sweet

separate we look back and break away knowing now that we're ok nothing will be the same but this decay we've created will always remain to remind us all that nothing ever came from truth telling and all we ever really wanted was uniqueness but the truth is we were searching for a likeness we never found

Hate saturates your words,

Like alcohol does your breath.

You lived without loving,

And now there's nothing left.

Pain suffocates my hopes,

You tie around me my noose.

You lived without seeing,

And now your grip's so loose.

All my life I was a slave

Slave for all your requests

"Work harder! This isn't enough"

Is just what you would always muster

For years I've longed for your affection

Yearning for all the attention

You never took notice of me when I'm at my best

But at my worsts, you're first to infest

Now I'm ruined from inside out

All complements, I just laugh it out loud

They all look up but still I look down

You're voice, like record, leaving me broken and damned

You never loved me

You never did

I used to love you

But never again

All I want to do

Is rip the smile from your face

Because it's not for me

And kick you when you're down

And watch you while you bleed

You never cared for me

And now I'll never care for you

And soon I'll find a way to burn your ashes

Damned from the start,

Deranged by nature;

Murderous intents,

Floating around inside;

Lust welling up,

Totally uncontrollable;

Hate and Apathy,

Growing deeper into my mind;

Nothing is good,

All is darkness inside.

- Michael Hall

You told me to say sorry

Whenever I made a mistake.

And when I did make a mistake

You told me

Sorry wasn't enough.

You expected me

To grow up and be responsible

When only a week ago

I had to ask for permission

To use the bathroom.

You said you'd always support me

No matter what.

But when I finally began to accept myself

You claimed it was a phase

And told me to get over it.

You called me useless

Stupid

Worthless

Weak

A failure

I called you cruel

And you kicked me out.

You said I'd be nothing without you.

Well, maybe I'd rather be nothing

Than with you.

Orange peels,

Litter the kitchen floor.

The smell of dandelion greens and escarole,

Permeate from a blue bowl.

Crab apple vinaigrette saturates the greens,

Turning lunch into gastronomic torture.

I resent your success.

I hate your corpulence and your life is so fucking nice smiles.

I want to stick you with a knife.

You have everything and still

you bleed that barrel bone dry.

I listen in disgust as you force feed

your bloated gut, pig,

I hate having to use the same toilet as you.

You fart in bed and I have to open a window it's so rank.

Fuck off and die.

haven't written,

haven't slept,

haven't cried,

haven't wept,

haven't walked across the room,

haven't peered up at the moon

well, even if i still loved you,

and even if i wanted to,

you're sure making it easy

to forget

about the reasons

we used to compare our love

to a crowded, happy room--

full of laughter,

full of joy,

full of happily ever after,

well, be both know

this is a long time coming,

we both could see this day

approaching.