family reunions are fun
i never wanted you, but maybe that's why
you wanted me.
my screams your lullabies,
you never went to sleep without
hearing me beg for help just so you could
slap my face red and tell me to be your good girl.
i learned to stop screaming. it was my way of resisting,
to just lie there silently, numb to your touch
until you started hitting me and didn’t stop
until my tears made the world blurry.
i never wanted to tell my mom that her brother
stole my body for his use every night.
and i never should’ve. clearly i’m just
making it up to ruin his reputation.
Open Mic Scream
I never wanted to be
that stands at the mic
shaking with irrelevance
before I even move my lips
the only possible
outcome folding up
like a deck of cards
with no ace
and this alone is
hearing the dial tone
of a fame I can’t obtain
some kind of writer I am
only being able
to hear my own echo
the corona virus
made it so my words
off of walls that don’t vibrate
when I was quarantined
in a hospital room
my writing was the
only way to scream
I never wanted
to be this unknown
pen to paper
ripping up the untold
I never wanted to be a mom
But then I held you in my arms.
All my worries became very real,
But you couldnt know how I feel.
I buried them down and held on
Until I woke up and you were gone.
Nurses were gentle to break the news
But it didn’t stop the pain and blues.
I’d escaped my land to give you a home
And now I’m here, broke, and all alone.
For months I wandered in a haze
Sloely navigating grief stage by stage.
Once I hit acceptance, I met Ivan
Who encouraged me to keep on fighting.
We wed and are now expecting a girl
Though I still wish you were in thid world.
They helped me see you had set me free
So I have mourned and you can rest in peace.
i . . .
is a lie . . .
i tell myself
all too oft . . .
i never know
but only kind-of
a double negative
called on in vain
. . . the nominal
by full denial . . .
. . . just in case!
if at the stroke
the satin fails
. . . to please,
in after taste !
i never wanted
no i never want
i never wanted!
. . . my mistakes
all these desires
their horses . . .
after my carriage
. . . but still
. . . innocent,
at the trial . . !
i never wanted.
Create a poem that starts with the phrase "I never wanted" challenge @renatarf99
I never wanted you to feel
such pain within your heart;
please trust my love for you is real
although we are apart.
I had to leave, but you must know
I hated that I had to go,
and pray that you can start
to find the strength to help you heal.
In all our lives, you’ve never known,
the loneliness and fear
that comes from thinking you’re alone
and no one else is near.
We started out the best of friends,
I truly thought we’d see the end
while hand in hand, my dear;
Alas, sweetheart, that dream’s undone.
Still children when we came to be,
and not yet out of school;
you were the princess of my dreams,
and I your comic fool.
Our friends and families told us how
we were too young for life-long vows—
exceptions to the rules,
after we grew, you married me.
In time, we made our dreams come true
and watched our family grow.
Our children, and grandchildren too,
through them our love still flows.
Now even though my time has come,
your earthly work is not yet done;
so live, my love, and know
from heaven, I’ll be watching you.
© 2020 Dusty Grein
Note: This is a neoclassic form, known as a gemstone. It is very strict on its 32 line usage of rhyme and meter, and though it can be challenging to craft, it is also quite satisfying when it comes together.
Never and forever are opposite in definition,
but brothers in the time their promises hold:
"I will love you forever."
So, when you said "I never wanted to hurt you."
Didn't that mean not ever?
for the time being.
What happened to that promise? That Always linked to ever.
You broke that Ever.
What happened to the Always promise conected to your ever in forever?
How could you?
Why would you?
And your Ever in never, "I never wanted to hurt you."?
You may not have ever wanted, but you did.