I’m not over you
I'm waiting for you in that Peter Pan place between sleep and awake,
so hopeful that you'll finally return to me and cross the bridge
over the River of Life that winds between us, that separates
like so many ashes scattered in the sea.
But I know these images will disappear, ink dissolving in the ocean.
Really, I'm a fool, still waiting for you with my heart broken.
I'm waiting and praying even knowing you're
I don't need it. Yeah, I don't. I keep repeating it to myself. I was determined to do that. I'm not a baby anymore.I closed my eyes forcefully. I should sleep, I .
With a sudden I get up from the the bed. I couldn't remember when did I fall asleep. It's a nightmare just a nightmare. I tried to calm down my self.
But being alone in the dark without anyone broke my heart in thousand pieces. "Want it back" I started sobbing without realizing.
I thought I got over my booboo, the teddy bear I used to keep by side since I was a kid. Still I couldn't, I know I'm an adult. But how could I do that. Can I?
You’re Already the Voice Inside My Head
You’ve always been my emo fantasy boy. You don’t have black shaggy hair and your clothes are too basic. But your sad little smile broke my heart. The way you shy away from anyone that shows you affection made me draw closer. But everytime I tried to show you affection, you shied away.
In your room, you’d play video games alone and listen to the screaming sadness of the people who dress on the outside as you feel on the inside. Your friends had to physically come get you but there was not one person that you liked.
We met four years ago and during our career, we kept being stationed at the same place. In a romance novel, we would have been destined to end up together.
I miss you but I’m sure you’ve forgotten me. Like that day you used me and threw me out the door.
The smell of you turns heads for some
But for me, I stumble when you pass me by.
The smell of you makes me wander about, running from the scent that introduces you
And even when I cover up
the hint of you hits me in the head. Nauseous I get...and since you can’t seem to understand my requests to omit the odor
Hear me now; for, tact does evade me...
You reek and the smell of you makes me sick!
Watching you walk away
At the airport for the last time, we embrace and say our goodbyes. You look deeply into my eyes. As if waiting for something more. A hug, a kiss, my true feelings? I don't know and I never will. I say goodbye one last time and with a look of disappointment, you walk away.
Walking towards the flight gate. Casting one last glance my way and for the briefest of seconds, I know your true feelings. The memory is stuck in my mind, like a sliver. Tears, red eyes, and quivering lips. I never knew that I meant so much to you.
I wish that I had the strength and the courage to take you then and there. Embrace you, kiss you, and tell you how much I love you. But I can't.
Over You, Not
To have you.
Falling for you,
on & on,
time & time
I still fall for you,
I still fall endlessly,
as if there's no ground,
I'm still needing you
I know you don't need me,
love me, even.
I'm still feeling your touch,
when you embrace her in your arms.
I'm still hearing your whispers,
'I love you,'
when you say it
close to her ear.
I'm so over you,
I hate you. I hate your loud chewing and your morning coffee breath. I hate how right you are all of the time. I hate the one strand of hair that never stays put. I hate your determination, passion, and intelligence. I hate you for being perfectly imperfect. Most of all, I hate myself for letting you go.
By all intents and purposes I have moved on from you.
Everyone thinks I have a great life.
Long term marriage with someone who loves me unconditionally,
But in the dark recesses of my mind,
I think of the passion we shared,
The insatiable heat between us.
Every once in a while,
All these years later,
If things were different,
What we could have been.