Taking out the goats
I stopped walking.
To listen
to the sounds
all around
of birds
and the wind
through the trees.
If you sniff
you can smell
the few
remaining blossoms
on the Hawthorn.
Scattered on the ground
are violets,
daisies,
clovers and more.
Walking barefoot,
the stones
of the road
are cool
and slightly damp
from morning dew
As I brush past
the long grass
my jeans
become wet
with heavy drops
off the tall blades.
A feeling of well-being
has settled on my mind
though I know
of the many dilemmas
waiting
back at the house.
Nothing that can't
be put aside for
a few moments peace
in the mornings
when
taking out the goats.
Thank You.
I'm sure you know I love you but to be sure, here it is : I love you.
I remember when I was given a book to fill in when I was very little, there was a question that went something like : " Who do you want to be like when you grow up?" I don't think I ever answered anything, but I know now that I would put you.
You are the person I most want to be like. You're so strong, so caring, and after all you've been through you are still kind and patient and always want to believe the best of people ( though with a much-needed pinch of scepticism).
I've noticed, over the years how similar I am to you, in many ways. I can only hope that I will always be as respected as I respect you, and as thoughtful as you have always been.
Thank You for always being there,
I Love You.
Getting through it all...
Sometimes there is no coping. All you can do is curl up into a ball and cry your heart out, until you realise you're just doing it for effect. Out of self-pity. Life is still going on, it won't help.
I'm lucky, because living on a farm there is always work to do.
That's what does it for me. Work. Fixing fences, building gates, digging hoes, chopping trees, mucking out, even just watching the animals is very important. And it all helps. To take your mind of things, off everything. To think only about what you're doing at that moment. It doesn't take your troubles away, or solve your problems, but a clear mind is the only way you can get through all the overwhelming stuff.
There are other ways such as walking, sometimes walking up our long lane will calm me down enough, either listening to nature or singing as loudly and as badly as possible to various songs. Playing a musical instrument has a very calming effect on people, if I happen to be cross, playing something loud like an accordion is great for letting out frustration.
That's how I get through a bad time. Different methods for different moods.