I want a guy I can trust and be myself around. I don’t want things to be awkward, I want it to feel like we are best friends. I want someone I can imagine myself talking to for hours on end without being bored. I want a fairytale. I don’t mean castles and balls and expensive gifts. My version of a fairytale is making brownies together while dancing around the kitchen singing as loud as possible. My fairytale is the simple things. I want him to not be afraid to say “that’s my girl” and “I can’t believe she’s mine”. I want inside jokes that make me laugh until my stomach hurts. He needs to be someone who can make fun of me and joke around with me for hours but still be serious at times when it’s important. I want someone who can make my eyes light up and my cheeks blush as soon as I hear their name. I want a “dang, they’re still together?” type of relationship. I want someone to make me feel like I’ve never been happier. I want someone that feels like home. Someone that is my bridge when it’s pouring down rain - the only calm in the middle of a storm. I want to go to haunted houses and amusement parks and go sledding and ice skating. I would much rather have something special made by him than some store bought gift. I want the relationship everyone stalks on Instagram because it’s so cute and natural. I want someone that is the reason I go to bed smiling every night, no matter how bad my day was. I want a best friend.
I am not open to many people. I’m usually quiet and I don’t really like attention. So if I like you enough to show you the real me, you must be very special
Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live
Repeat after me: I am worthy of all of the things I want, even the things that feel out of reach
Wonder
Every day I think about you
There’s no way
I’d ever get through
Life can feel just like a tidal wave
You were there to keep me floating
And your smile just kept me going
And your arms
They always kept me safe
Now that you are gone
How do I go on?
Where’s the hand
That I once held so tight?
It’s just not the same
Where’s that burning flame?
How’d it burn out
Though we once burned bright?
Can you hear me
When I call out your name?
Can you see me
When I jump in the rain?
Can you feel me
When the sun hits your face?
I just wonder where
You are every day
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na/na-na-na
Na
Every song I ever hear is
Is holding on to
What I cherish
Life has not just ever been the same
Even though we’re not together
I just know life would be better
With you here, wish you could only stay
I want you to know
Didn’t want you to go
You mean more to me than I’ve ever shown
Can you hear me
When I call out your name?
Can you see me
When I jump in the rain?
Can you feel me
When the sun hits your face?
I just wonder where
You are every day
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na/na-na-na
Na
I remember when
We were more than friends
I remember then
Thought it’d never end
Can you hear me
When I call out your name?
Can you see me
When I jump in the rain?
Can you feel me
When the sun hits your face?
I just wonder where
You are every day
Can you hear me
When I call out your name?
Can you see me
When I jump in the rain?
Can you feel me
When the sun hits your face?
I just wonder where
You are every day
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na/na-na-na
Na
You Can’t Hurt Me
You hold me to the fire
Knowing I’m alone
Try and make me cry
And tear away my home
Every chance you get
Throw another stone
Don’t you know regret
Never heals a bone?
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
Where did you go wrong
To harbour so much hate
I won’t carry on
The fear that you create
Today I will survive
Sometimes it’s hard to live
I won’t forget the crying
But just try to forgive
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
Try to break me down
Words that scatter fear
But love’s the only sound
My heart will ever hear
Tomorrow may not come
But still I choose to pray
For another sun
To greet my weary face
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
No, oh, oh, no, no, no
I don’t wanna go
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
Another day you wake
To bend my will again
But it will never break
Cause hate can never win
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
And you can’t make me
No, you can’t hurt me
Mean To Me
You barely spoke to me
I get it
I can see
Your friends
They laugh out loud
Then whisper when you talk to me
You stay away from me
Cause you’re afraid to be
That boy I used to know
And love that swept me off my feet
Will you ever know
Just how much I love you
Will you ever be
What you mean to me
Will you ever know
It’s such a tragedy that you’re so mean
But mean so much to me
Mean to me
You used to always say
You’d never walk away
You’d never miss a day
Just to say “hello” to me
But now you throw away
My heart so easily
Your so-called friends will never
Understand us anyway
Will you ever know
Just how much I love you
Will you ever be
What you mean to me
Will you ever know
It’s such a tragedy that you’re so mean
But mean so much to me
Mean to me
Mean to me
Mean to me
Mean to me
Will you ever know
Just how much I love you
Will you ever be
What you mean to me
Will you ever know
It’s such a tragedy that you’re so mean
But mean so much to me
Mean to me
Will you ever know
Just how much I love you
Will you ever be
What you mean to me
Will you ever know
It’s such a tragedy that you’re so mean
But mean so much to me
Mean to me
I Still Care
I didn’t sign up for this
And maybe I rushed to him
Cause you’re still imprinted in my mind eight months after goodbye
I thought I was over it
Just trying to feel
What I felt with you, with him
I don’t wanna care
But I’m caught up in my own love affair
His hands in my hair but I’m not there
I know it’s not fair that I still care, that I still care
I lost my grip
Got caught in the stages of grief I skipped
With him everything is just as it is
But you spark the fire that I have missed
Just trying to feel
What I felt with you, with him
I don’t wanna care
But I’m caught up in my own love affair
His hands in my hair but I’m not there
I know it’s not fair that I still care, that I still care
I burned the bridges
But the ashes are still in my hands
I wanna let them go
But I can’t
I burned the bridges
But the ashes are still in my hands
I wanna let them go
But I can’t
I don’t wanna care
But I’m caught up in my own love affair
His hands in my hair but I’m not there
I know it’s not fair that I still care, that I still care
Oh, I shouldn’t care
But I still care
I burned the bridges but the ashes are still in my hands
I wanna let them go but I can’t