just when you think life has slowed down enough to catch your breath, it sends another punch into your gut, stealing away the little air you have left. than you just stand there. watching out at the world moving around you, friends growing and for that second that seems to stretch an eternity you wish your life was as simple as 'theirs'.
envy overtakes you than later turns to anger and you find yourself what have you done to deserve this. you Ask God to grant you direction, send a message in any form. and although in your mind you repeatedly tell yourself that you have faith you dont feel it in your heart nore your core. doubt lurks behind those dark thoughts and somehow they forcefully push through. and you stand there with a smile plastered on your face and your emotions dancing, twirling, screaming, crying with in you.
God, I am weary and my bones aching. My flesh is tired from going through so many bad times. When is it my turn to be happy? is all this pain and aching part of Your plan for me that will lead to my purpose, or am i being punished? Lord, you say you give the biggest battles to your strongest warriors, but God i am tired and i can no longer carry myself. everything within me wants to crawl into a ball and disappear. i exist in time and it all seems to fly past me.i exist and have long ago felt alive. I apologize for my doubt for i know you never leave my side, I apologize for the anger i carry within me towards You for i know not the bigger picture i fit into nore that these trials and tribulations are what is needed of me to get to Your destination. Lord, remind me in though times to look at my blessings rather than the bad i have gone through. Carry me where i can no longer walk. Guide me where i cannot see, heal every broken part of me. Be my strength on days i struggle to get out of bed. Lord, open doors for me where they have been shut. hear my cry, Lord. I am weary and I need You , God
But dear, you don’t have a past.
Endless words, all of which I created. Something filling my senses with agony, and in a way only someone like us could make.
“I don’t care,” they’d say. “I don’t care what you did. I don’t care what you said. I don’t care what happened. All I care about is who you are now.”
The light within ❤
Looking out the window
I seek for something distinct
Hugs and happiness
Captures my eye
Turning back to my desk
I feel distress
Feels like it’s been ages
In this trapped prison
Picking up a book
Paints a smile on my face
The sense of calmness
Let me out with a sigh
Why not embrace this
And look on the positive side
There are ups and downs in this pandemic
But make sure to stand strong
Make yourself happy because you’re all you need to put a smile on you face!
Be strong throughout this pandemic and encourage yourself! Do something that makes you happy. ❤
You took out my heart
And understood it.
Clearing all the clots of confusion
And pumping new blood of dedication.
I was so happy at the change
But the moment you placed it back,
My mind started filling it with corruption
And again flew the cells of doubts
With haemoglobin sabotaging
My love of life.
20 November 2020
M is the initial of my first name, Miesha. I have grown up with people pronouncing my name in different forms; after a while, I got used to it. The reason I was chosen this name before birth is a sad story. My mom was pregnant with me when she saw on the news that a young black girl with the same name spelled Myiesha was killed and found in a dumpster not far from where she lived. She found the name beautiful and wanted to honor the little girl by naming me after her.
Miesha is derived from Michael(Slavic), which means “Gift from God,” A gentlemen read my nametag and asked, “Do you know what your name means to us in my country?” I replied, “No, what does it mean?” He said, “In Swahili, it means “Life.” And after that, a few of my Arabic friends' grandparents would say to me “Alive and Well,” in Arabic.
My middle name is Clarice, and I was named after my maternal mother’s middle name. But what it means; “Bright and Clear.” Or “Gentle “
I am a Bright and gentle soul who is Alive and Well and a Gift from God.
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