This roof above me became my shield,

Quite stronger; my umbrellas now hid

Though it doesn't let me get soaked

The loudness between raindrops never gets old

On each corner of the house: it wails

Drop, drop. Drop, drop. the sorrow is heard

Still, it sounds joyful, as it slams into the ground

They seemed delicate, like someone is crowned

The birds are chirping their song amid darkness, seeming like they could still recognize hope in spaces they stare at and fly through. While the stars shine brightly, the moon peaks from its comfort zone, crescent yet whole on its own, quite gorgeously honed. Now is a given time to take a deep sleep and amuse yourself in your dreams, but these two young ladies under the tree don’t seem to be intrigued by having sweet dreams, at all.

“Have you ever…” the lady thinks twice before fully uttering the question. “…ever confessed your feelings to someone?” she asked then took a glance at the person peacefully sitting right next to her, her best friend.

Someone who just closed her eyes and inhaled all the freshness of the air as it played with them in the middle of the night after sneaking out of their dormitory room and ending up contemplating their lives.

But then the silence met its death.

Lay’s intimidating question cracked the ice that has been freezing their skinny bodies under the lonely tree in front of their dormitory. Few lamps in the hallway give a bit of life. They could only hear the wind dancing with the leaves and as well as with the sweet branches reaching the space higher as it could match the bird’s sentiments. It whistles like a lullaby. They look into each other’s eyes, trying to decipher the awkwardness just a second after the simple question was uttered.

It wasn’t a new question, and neither are they teenagers anymore to even dodge it, yet somehow it sounds like a weird tone echoed, like an amateur pianist hitting the wrong chord, as expected.

“Why are you bringing that up?” asked Claire and gazes at Lay. “don’t tell me you’re interested in the topic itself?”

Lay instantly shakes her head. “It’s not that I’m interested, just curious.” she replied. “some said that people are more honest in the evening, especially at midnight. The idea thrills me to ask you that question.”

“That’s nonsense.” Claire disagrees.

“So, it means we mostly lie in broad daylight?”

“I don’t know. I just read it somewhere.”

“Have you?” Claire dodge back the question to Lay, but she just smiles a bit and shakes her head.

“No way. Will never have that scenario stuck in my thoughts, I doubt it’ll happen.”

“Well, in my case I did confess to someone” Claire answered then cleared her throat. “Well, a lot of times I think, when I was in high school” She added.

“What does it feel?” a curious follow-up question from Lay, “Is it some sort of magic or…just a lost butterfly in your stomach?” Lay randomly added. This time their eyes look in the opposite direction, and sip their warm coffee, afraid that their eyes would bring the saying, eyes never lie to life. Claire digs up first her deepest well of thoughts before handing a cup of experience to Lay.

“It wasn’t that special at all. Like what I imagined it might be, or it should be, considering confession could be defined by someone as one of the big days she can have, since you know, it is about your heart’s voice.” She explained and followed with a deep sigh. No wavering at all.

Both could easily read each other’s body language as if it always talking verbally, that is what best friends are for, maybe. Lay just makes a long face at what Claire has stated.

“To be honest, does it need to be special? I mean, I thought it was just a mere word, or phrase coming out of your mouth from the deepest secret you always carry with you, a bit hidden I guess, it wasn’t like that?” Lay frankly asked. She knew Claire very well, she’s the type of person who prefers to show herself transparently than to fake it, especially her emotions to someone. For a reason that it is meaningful to her, like what they are currently talking about at this moment.

For Claire, it is important, while for Lay it’s just a mere topic.

“You said that you’ve done it a lot of times already, does all of that come out with sincerity at all?” Lay still couldn’t picture the thought and experience Claire had. “I know feelings don’t need to be kept, Claire and one must be able to express it for the sake of others, but for some instances, it’s just a simple appreciation for someone’s existence, it’s not an extravagant scene a person should plan on before

executing it.”

“Maybe, for you, it could be as easy as that, let’s say throwing garbage in its proper bin, but for others, like me, it is different,” Claire argues and focuses her attention on the dark spaces. “Imagine a piece of paper begging a writer not to compose sad poetries again, sort of like that.” she delicately expressed those words with blandness in her eyes.

“Maybe, for you, it could be as easy as that, let’s say throwing garbage in its proper bin, but for others, like me, it is different,” Claire argues and focuses her attention on the dark spaces. “Imagine a piece of paper begging a writer not to compose sad poetries again, sort of like that.” she delicately expressed those words with blandness in her eyes.

Sometimes she’s just so transparent that everyone could read her mind but there happened to be moments, when she’s comparable to a big lake, though quiet and calm to look at, at the time that you swim, its deepness pulls you hard ’til you reach out for air to breathe in.

“What a deep thought, dear. Take everything else easy, just like how you smoothly write those cheesy and pealing onion poems you have kept,” said Lay teasing her best friend, who’s still overthinking about life.

“I hope it could be easy as that Lay, but I, felt that it isn’t.”

“Like I told you, you just need to express it.”

“As if you knew how.”

“I do. I could thank you hundred times for being a friend of mine. That’s it, simple as that. I’m confessing my thoughts to you because you’ve been an excellent person beside me.”

“That’s not the case for me Lay.”

“If you’re still confused about it, don’t ever confess it yet. You will just be regretting things.”

“But it doesn’t come off this tiny brain of mine.”

“That’s the simple proof that you are consumed by confusion. Do it like this Claire, don’t think about that person anymore.” Lay swiftly mumbled and Claire almost spilled the coffee she was holding because of awe and her eyeballs couldn’t even roll a bit, maybe they froze due to coldness. “The simplest gesture you can do for your sake is to have your peace of mind,” Lay added. Little did Claire expect any sugarcoating from her friend because they both knew what and who is the ending point of the story Claire is trying to dig up.

It’s an unsealed condition for best friends, to not hide anything.

“Be careful with your word…” Claire quickly whispered to make Lay lower her voice. “…he might just be around here with his brown little guitar.” She added.

“Oh!” Lay gasps curving a smile on her lips. “someone’s always enjoying a view of a guy playing his favorite songs with his brown little guitar huh.” Claire just rolled her eyes at what Lay has declared. She cannot deny that simple fact she just heard.

“Keep it to yourself Lay. Lucky for you that you haven’t been able to confess to someone you like, you are so good at hiding Lay, at almost everything.”

Claire stated in a calm voice and just sighed out of disappointment that she is the only victim of what they called lost butterflies.

“I’m glad I can do that much for my own sake, if not, it’ll just be a thorn in my journey.”

“Oh, so bitter.”

“Unlike your sweetness, I, myself, cannot stand with your butterflies.”

Lay’s life is similarly a bitter-sweet taste. She hates long-life butterflies in her stomach, according to her it might be suffocated inside that is why she just let them free, as in free to find another stomach to victimize.

Lay hates men, for some reason.

They continued teasing each other as if there would be no guard doing rounds at 11 pm because there they are, enjoying their warm cup of coffee and a crumb of the moment with freezing air. No one has checked the time, they forgot that it indeed flew like the butterflies. The girls have been talking outside for at least an hour.

“Maybe this is what they call, 10 pm thoughts of a girl.” Claire jokingly said to break the silence again. Can she now be called a silence breaker?

“It’s 3 am thoughts, not 10 pm.” Lay bluntly corrected her which makes Claire frown. “…should we now get inside? I’m almost done with my coffee.” Lay stood up and then leaves her seat, she was ready to go.

“Hey! Let us extend another hour, please?” Claire suggested. “I want to feel this fresh air more. The next evening, we sit under this tree, this air could be gone already.”

The idea is quite impossible, however, Lay was convinced by that little absurd idea, because why would air leave a tree, they seemed to be always together. Never mind the guard. Maybe he’s still busy eating dinner.

The surrounding is still quiet.

As they wait for another second to pass, no one brought up any other topic aside from what they are talking about earlier. Claire is spaced out while Lay is just staring at the stars.

“Is it for real then?” Lay asked as she stares at the stars as they gave her a topic to start with.

Now, Claire is confused by the unexpected, yet expected question from Lay. She just gave her an emotionless glance that somehow presents an obvious answer.

She tried to divert it.

“That we need to leave? Yeah, you know anytime the guard—”

“Nope, I mean your feelings for him.”

Lay’s straightforward phrases always caught Claire off-guard. Unable to form a simple yet reasonable answer to present.

For the nth time around, awkwardness filled their cup yet instantly spilled out by Claire. She just sighed and stood up, deciding to finally leave. This time her feet start to go on their journey to their room. She wanted to avoid answering the question. Claire just fully turned her back on Lay, who was more confused by her gestures.

“It is?!” Lay exclaimed. Claire immediately looks back and glares at Lay. Her eyes look like a lion ready to devour her meal at any time, while Lay’s eyes were just as innocent as it is and calm, it’s just her voice that changed a bit as if nothing happened.

“It is?!” Lay exclaimed. Claire immediately looks back and glares at Lay. Her eyes look like a lion ready to devour her meal at any time, while Lay’s eyes were just as innocent as it is and calm, it’s just her voice that changed a bit as if nothing happened.

Lay stopped asking more questions to Claire for she knows how uncomfortable the topic is for her friend. Thus, Lay seconded the conclusion and suggested, to go back to their room and take a deep rest. A few steps away from their place, suddenly all the lamps in the hallway light up and leave them with no choice but,

to run.

Staring at each other while trying to hold their laughter and running for their life, not to be caught by the guard, again.

“...the guard is a killjoy...” they both whispered and then laughs while running hastily. Their room is a bit far from the place where they usually spend to kill time, though might be just a walking distance but tiring if

they’ll run.

Glad that the entrance door is still open, a clear sign that it’s not yet midnight. But at the point of reaching the stairs, they need to quiet down, others might be awakened by the noise of their steps. So, they slowly, carefully, and quietly take the stair, staring at their feet step by step.

Every step is followed by a deep sigh, neither coming out of worried nor nervousness. It is but pure relief that no one so far has noticed their presence in the middle of the night.

And yet, something is off, it is the last step of the stair, but a guitar seemed to be lying on the floor, a little brown guitar. Both were confused and couldn’t take the last step; they again froze and just stare at the guitar in front of them.

“A guitar?”

“Yes, a guitar.”

“What would a guitar be doing here? Alone?”

“Hmm? No clue at all.”

Only their whisperings were to be heard in the hallway no matter how low their voices are. As if they already are guilty of something they usually

do.

Claire gasps and both their eyes widened out of surprise when a hand slowly grabs the guitar in front of them, luckily that Lay’s palm landed perfectly on her mouth to stop it from making more noise that is much more dangerous than the person standing in front of them. As they lift their heads, both just sighed out of relief and stands still after taking the last step on the stair.

“What are you doing here outside our rooms?” Lay instantly asked the guy who was also standing still in front of them and knew already what is going on. His stares automatically landed at Claire but then faster than the flash, Claire just turned her eyes to Lay communicating an obvious message, then Lay hurriedly removes her hand covering her mouth.

“I should be the one asking that to you, both of you, the legend of sneakers” he replied and though it was a bit dark in the hallway, his hastened curved smiles are still visible to Claire.

“Can you please, excuse us? We’re in a hurry.” she bitterly said. Claire grabbed Lay’s hand and walked toward their room, 5 doors away from the stairs.

“Yeah, I can feel it too.” He just waved a hand and walks down the stair without any hurriedness at all. Carefully carrying his little brown guitar reached the entrance of the gate but as soon as he held onto the doorknob, a flashlight is pointed at him. It is the guard.

“Where do you think you’re going at this hour?” the guard asks and stood in front of the entrance door blocking him.

“Oh, it’s nothing. Just want to breathe fresh air outside along with my guitar.” He said then lifts his guitar trying to convince the guard which will be impossible to happen. His lips again curved smiles, a fake smile, and the guard sharply glared at him.

“The aircon in your room is fresh than the air outside.” The guard argues.

“Oh. Really? Okay. I’ll be back in my fresh air-conditioned room then.” He uttered with an insulting bland tone in his voice, this guy just loved teasing their guard every time they argue then turned his back and left the guard. “Thank you for the advice.” his ending statement before going back to his room.

The two ladies walked fast and reached their room before anyone else open a door just to watch them sneaking, again. Countless times have they sneaked out of their room just to take a rest under that lonely tree while sipping their cup of coffee. It somehow becomes a comfort to them.

So, the Admin and Guard are already familiar with their footsteps, their whispers, and alibis whenever they are interrogated in the Guidance Office.

Lay’s about to unlock the door but awaken by the reality that there is no key in her hand, yet, she doesn’t have it with her, nor in her pockets.

“Claire hand me the key,” Lay asked if Claire might have had it with her. But Claire’s eyes widely opened like she isn’t expecting this question. Now the answer is obvious.

“Huh? Key? What key?”

“I said, the key. That thing you need to un—I mean obviously, our door’s key I thought you have it with you?”

“You’re the one who locked it before we leave.”

“But you said, you’d carry it with you.” Both are still analyzing what is happening because they couldn’t find where the key is or who is holding the key.

“Don’t tell me, we both don’t have the key?” Their faces are now unpaintable. They look inside their sleepwear pocket but no sign of the key. Tries to recall where they put the key. But couldn’t remember any scenario regarding where they put the it.

Amid their argument and trouble, the door behind them opened. It both made them cover their faces and quickly kneeled on the floor turning their back at the opened door, ready for an earful sermon. Claire and Lay sighed in frustration knowing that tomorrow they’ll be expecting to be called to the Guidance Office to explain themselves, again.

“Hey...” a lady came out of the door wearing pajamas and her sleepy eyes staring at the two. “…Do you still have time to unwind? Amazing!” Sam gasped. She is also a college student, but they are one year ahead of Sam.

She handed them a sparkly clanking key.

“Oh! Our keys!” both exclaimed and Lay hurriedly grabbed the key.

“Wait, where did you get this Sam?” Claire immediately asked since both forgot who was supposed to be carrying the key. She looked at Sam who was standing in front of them and they were still kneeling pitifully in front of their locked door.

“Haze gave me that,” she replied. Claire and Lay stare at each other’s eyes surprised by the answer. “He told me to give it to you since you just throw it in front of his door, so he thought that you were asking him to keep it for you,” Sam explained to Claire.

No one is not confused at all.

“O-okay, anyway never mind. Thank you, Sam.” Claire grabbed the key from Lay and unlock the door, Lay followed her and Sam also get back to her room and locked the door behind her.

Out of tiredness from running, Claire lay hastily on their bed while Lay sits on the sofa.

“Why? I mean just how on earth did that key be in front of Haze’s door?”

Lay is still wondering about what just happened and her eyebrows are about to become a little bridge while Claire is just staring at the ceiling, not interested to answer at all. She lay beside Claire, and both take a glance at nowhere. All they can hear now is not a chirping bird neither a sweet lullaby from the freezing air but boredom and the killing silence that is itchy in their ears.

They both sighed, again, out of disappointment and dissatisfaction. Because they could just wish that time will fast forward, that tomorrow will be skipped, and when they wake up, a year already passed.

“Can we just be absent for tomorrow’s event?” Lay said out of nowhere and giggled.

“As if it’s possible.” Claire just closed her eyes and quiet down to sleep. They need to get enough sleep for tomorrow is their graduation.

“Tomorrow will just pass Lay, after that we’ll not be imprisoned in this dormitory anymore, we are free the next day.” Both curved a smile.

“You hate school, huh?” Lay mumbled.

“Who loves school anyway?” She argues then rolled her eyes.

“Could we be able to live out our dreams?” Lay somehow smoothly diverted the topic.

“That’s a nice and tricky question. Come to think of it, when we get out of this school, will there be more opportunities for us?”

“Well, if there isn’t enough job for us, then let’s make our job, you, being the cook, since you’re good at it and I’ll be your…” Lay stopped for a moment and think, “… I’ll be your investor.” She added.

“Should we just marry?” an absurd question coming from Claire, that makes Lay disappointedly cringe.

Claire looks at her face which shows nothing but an undecipherable image.

Claire must be thinking life as a married woman will be 10x easier than working 10 hours a day as an unmarried woman.

“What?! Marry?” Lay respond and raised one of her eyebrows. “…Do you think that will be easy? I can’t even imagine myself being in a relationship, and then what, marry someone? That is the weirdest suggestion you can ever present, dear. Instead, I will build a house for myself then die, single.” Lay said then giggled.

“I’ll join you then. We’ll build a house for us, just the two of us.”

“Hey, don’t tell me. You like—”

“A BIG NO! It’s just that, you’re afraid of darkness. Besides, you have no other friend aside from me, am I wrong? So, I’ll join you then. For your wittiest information, I’m just a concerned citizen here, duh.”

“Okay, then you’ll also be my chef.”“Okay, then you’ll also be my chef.”

“You’ll do the dishes.” Claire follows.

“Let’s grocery together!” both exclaimed out of excitement.

They haven’t been able to prepare or even think if ever that moment is to come. They only have in them pure imaginations of what they want to happen after they graduated college.

To not marry and live together.

Their escape, for now, is to graduate and be freed from what they thought prison, their university, and its Dormitory. They wanted to look for a job as soon as they graduate and do whatever they want. To achieve their goals, their dreams and to not be able to stay in this school.

There are so many things they plan to do before reaching theirs, to go abroad, to not just window shopping but to buy expensive dresses, to eat in a 5-star restaurant and enjoy like it is their last day on earth. That is somehow a payment for the whole 4 years they stayed in a Dormitory and were never able to go outside unless they will celebrate holidays and birthdays with their families.

Little did they know that the outside world will not always be the same. Their desires will not stay still in their hearts, it also has an expiration, there will come a day that they would wish they just stayed inside the school for another 20 more years. Dreams are easy to be held onto but not the process.

After taking a half-bath, they finally slept peacefully.

I saw some couple argue about somethingI saw some couple argue about something

Little knowledge I have,

Thought they would soon be separated

Says, it's because they don't love each other enough

To keep their relationship stronger

That despite challenges and struggle

They have to and must hold each other

Through ups and downs, they laugh and cry

Through guilt and pain, they both sighed

They learned they are for each other

Not as two persons but as one.

why am I almost, always drowning

every second our eyes met,

as if they weren't strangers

to suppressed sentiments

those desperate weeping

as the moon peeks in stillness,

did we teach these hearts

endure such pain, so effortless.

haven't I told you before

often look at your reflection

'cause its lengthy reasons

self-esteem and admiration

I unhurriedly opened my eyes

Before looking down in eternity

These gentle steps I've known

Never brought solace in me; but dear

My neck is now stiffed

Shall I raise this chin?

And look at this mirror's eye

or still, choose to face the ground

I'm afraid of its poisoned lies

Indeed, often exists as an ally

But I cannot endure; alone

A sharpened reality from its lips

Can perhaps wound me to my soul.

Even the east and west wings

Desired I to break its bones

For it doesn't shine when it flew

I've seen mine, colorlessly honed

Roaming heretofore; silently

Applauds blew both ears bigger,

But I sat as I wishfully listened to

Raindrops pouring quite heavier

Will it make the petals grow or drown?

I must look for a veil, thick and cozy

Hence, my skin will get numb; from cold stares

These mirrors beside me whispered

Wearing a novel-like smile;

delusional like a tale.

At the back of my head

Never knew I had a keen eye

Saw my shadow shivering as it obey

Followed me while ignoring the signs

In the middle of the crowd; I discern

Unseen tears fell and trampled self-esteem

In a tight dark closet; I heard a scream

surrounded by deaf walls,

shorter than my fears.

Hastily I stepped out, chinned up

Look what encircles me, the mirror reflected

These four of me looked at each other

"Mirror, mirror on the wall," asked I

Is there someone confident of us all?

I, as a Christian, have so many things to thank in my life, even before I was born I had to thank God for loving me with all He's got. My family. My friends. Everyone who cares for me. I've been overthinking about how I am using this life, is it for my own sake or no one's sake? So I sat and wrote down things I've done so far. Few were named and most of them are forgotten. "What did I even do?" I asked myself a thousand times if it were to be counted. I stumbled on this aspect of my life, my spiritual life. Am I just wasting these talents God has given me? Am I just breathing, inhaling, and exhaling on this earth and no use at all? What has been a big progress that I made in my life?

As a student, I have been struggling with my research paper. As a Sunday school teacher, I am struggling to teach. As a mere individual, I am struggling to live. What am I doing? Do I have a bit of capability that could let me finish these works I've started? Since I didn't take the course I wanted, I'm striving to cope. Since I have stage fright, I fear being in front of many people and listening to them.

There are so many things I fear. But then, I remembered God. Who in the end will be the reason I started living. He breathes life into me. He did give me talents. It is He alone who knows what I have done, or what things did I do in my life. No one in this world could tell me I've done my best, only the Creator can and will. So I started to re-think, to contemplate, "Yes, only God knows. I did the best I could." And whatever it is, little or big, it is still progress that keeps me walking onward. Because God always blesses His people.

Once upon a time, in a Light Castle, candles lived and sparkled differently on their own. There was one candle named Tearless that was envied by other souls because she never melted ever since she knew how to start a fire in her. She is also known as a candle that carries the brightest fire among them. Hence, not everyone around her likes her because of something she possesses, and yet it doesn’t bother her, she still sees the best in her even without their support and appreciation. Tearless never once put out her fire since she was born, and nothing serious has happened in her life that was able to put an end to that flame. Because of the amazement she feels, gives her confidence whenever she walks with the crowd.

“I am a candle who never melts!”. She would almost every day say it to herself happily. Every eye will stare at her with much jealousy and little admiration. Aside from being the brightest candle, she has a jolly personality, is bubbly, and is a candle who seems to be unproblematic about life, so, other candles frequently talk about her.

” She is always happy, that's why she never melts.” said the one candle.

“Is she immortal?” asked the other.

” Does she ever get sad?” one candle whispered.

Somehow, they believed that a candle melts not just because of the fire it has carried but also because of life's challenges and sadness that is somehow consuming their life quite faster than they thought. And yet, why is tearless never melts? Every day, tearless walks confidently while taking an endless journey, without any destination at all. Being proud of herself. Though the sun just rises she still has a fire in her, roaming around her neighborhood or even far away from the castle and other candles that see her get curious.

“It’s early in the morning, why don’t you put out your fire?” a candle shouted. She just smiled and told them that it was fine since she never melts anyway. All day long she carries a light with her, morning, noon, and at night. Believing she’s prepared even if a disaster unexpectedly comes.

"She's boasting about her fire." the other candle sadly uttered.

"I hope she'll melt." the envious candle wished.

But one day, a great wind came. It was the first unusual situation she ever faced. Tearless hides under the trees but it’s still blowing the fire in her, then she hides behind the woods and yet still the great wind continues as if it’s following her. She’s starting to feel afraid. Tearless cannot find a safer place, she doesn’t know what will happen if the fire is blown out by the wind.

The breeze continuously makes the leaves dance, and the mere fire tearless carries with her is now trembling so much as her knees. Then the moment that she had always been fearing happened, the fire went out. She didn’t know what to do, it was the first time she felt that she wasn’t the luminous candle anymore. Tearless is left puzzled while the wind is slowly fading.

All she can see is blackness. There was no light around her, she felt helpless and weak. She wanted to cry but fear was much stronger than all else.

“I can just ask for help. They can lend me a little fire” she told herself. But on her way to ask for some help, she noticed that something was wrong with her. Each step got lighter as if drops of water were pouring out from her, but then she assumed that maybe it was just raindrops. So, she keeps on walking, and a moment passes when she suddenly feels like everything around her is getting taller and bigger. Although she isn’t supposed to check on herself, she still does and just finds out that there is something wrong.

“I am melting!” she exclaimed. The shock was followed by heaviness, she couldn't believe what was going on with her. Tearless had seen her weakness and wanted to ask for help courageously but she was immediately swallowed by pride. She was bottled of confidence but now it is spilled on the ground.

Then is now drowning in pride. After all the boasting she showed them, she cannot ask for a small favor from them.

So, she just hid under the tree, without any hope left in her, and still wondered why she was melting after the fire was out.

In a short period, while enduring the sorrow, she heard loud giggles coming near her location, the other candles were happy enjoying the wind, swaying their bodies left and right like they were used to it even without a big fire above them, they were happy. However, tearless is still quiet and just letting herself melt but as they get closer, the joyous candle sees her. No matter how desireful she is, to hide, tearless failed. "What happened? Are you okay?” the other candle asked. She didn’t say anything, all she could feel was embarrassment like she’d prefer to melt instantly than to be seen by the crowd for her weakness which is so different from what others have experienced.

“I’m okay…Hmm... Nothing to be worried” she nervously explained and forced a smile. They knew Tearless was suffering. Without any hesitation, the other candle still has a fire with her and takes up the courage to give Tearless a small spark that brings back the fire in her, little by little. Until she became the brightest candle again.

“You’ll be okay.” A candle said. They joined tearless under the tree and every time the wind blew her fire they’d be there for a rescue. Tearless loved the company she encountered and slowly regained the strength and confidence she lost.

I have uttered the wittiest words thatI have uttered the wittiest words that

someone could ever be heard,

indeed, rest is what they found in me

Would it be too much, if I ask

to be kept folded like a sheet

instead of being trash?

Life has taught me silly things

if I am loved with perfection

these corners wouldn't be crumpled

in just mere three seconds.

It's getting hot in here

though I crawl for freedom,

fire is consuming my soul

My body is starting to vanish

like soft ashes, blown by the wind

flying here to for, no direction at all

Would it be too much if I ask

to be kept folded in your pockets

'Til I offer you again, a little bit of rest?

Thought water gives life

that after the rain, a rainbow arises

yet I couldn't see hope

this damp surface is getting grayish

I've melted alone and scattered

instead of a flower's fragrance

Smoke is all I can smell

Would this be too much?

Imagine yourself standing next a ridge, I must halt this wandering soul blindly walking closer, for I fear the knowledge when it reaches the place, it might fall unwise yet you’re like a petal who's caught by this temperament under the leafless tree, whereas you unintentionally fell into its arms.

Why is it that every time we metWhy is it that every time we met

and sit beside each other, there's a gap

Not a space or a wall but a silence

It's neither a noise nor a song

I hate to disclose that it's not unusual for me

I'd rather ride a roller coaster than sit here

At least there my voice is free, it has a sound

Unlike here it's blocked not by your presence,

But merely by hesitations

It is as if I've met a different person

Every time I opened up our conversation

The same clouds but unusual skies

We felt close though there is a distance

A gap between your place and mine

It felt like a string is tangled in our hands

Exchanging nonsense stories at a time

Appreciate someone's opinion and ideas

Comfort each other when falling seasons

But this fall is kind of a lonely season

Not yet dry but the tree's emptiness is a sight

Words with ambiguous understanding

We cannot see clearly if the ship's really sailing

No thunders, no winds, and no lightning

However, the waves are jumping on their beat

It's not sunny but I think I'd sweat anytime

My hand is trembling and no one could saw

This mind is mumbling, but no one hears

I'd still love the distance rather than the closeness

There, I felt your sincerity so as your distant presence.