I’m sorry everything is so hard right now. I know it’s all piling up and feels impossible to live through.

But,

one day soon it will be

warm

everyday

and we will sit and

have our coffee in the sun

maybe everything will still be going

wrong

but we will do it together

as we always have

we’ll be eating

sun-warmed strawberries

before you know it

yours,

entirely

we whisper

in our house

in the darkness

in the quiet of our mattress

where only we live

any louder and we would invoke

I think

the anger of the day

so we whisper

to each other

in a place where it is just us

two

suspended from life

and the things we said

the phone hasn’t rung

and I’m running out of

understanding

the unknowing is brutal

tip toeing on a live wire

over a canyon

someone bring me down

I don’t believe

in God

I believe in planting rosemary

by the garden gate

but I prayed to Saint Anthony and

found my lost passport

thirty seconds later

and I eat the Holy bread

my mother brings me

perhaps her prayer

will keep me safe

coffee has been poured

into these glaze-cracked mugs

longer than I have

been alive

may they outlive me and

warm hands

I do not get to meet

I guess I’m just hoping

the roughness

of my hands

won’t bruise

the gentle

of this feeling

the way you wrap

yourself

into my arms

closer with each

breath

I’m desperate to

engulf you

in this

warmth

underneath my tongue

the neighbors’ peonies

bloomed early

this summer

the sun

is still sinking

in the sky

and we’re sitting

in your car

windows open

under these trees

golden light

flitting down onto

us

just us

just you and me

and

I think we might be

falling

#poetry #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #lesbian

I used to

bathe us

in moonlight

when

I told the story

of before

but

the bitterness

of after

taught me that

it was just

the suns reflection

off a cold rock

a thousand miles

away

that made you look

so damn lovely