"For so long, my dear, you've wondered what I am when really you should have been inquiring who," said the luminescent figure sitting by my bedside. A stranger's presence would normally send me into a state of panic, alerting me to jump out of bed and flee. But the warm glow emanating from her, instead, made me feel as safe as a child in a mother's tender embrace. I remained nestled beneath my silky white sheets of my bed, rubbing my eyes and squinting in the brilliance of her light as she waited for me to speak. The kind nature of her laugh, as I fumbled through my simple question asking who she was, helped me feel more at ease. With that, she rose up and twirled around as though to dazzle me with her large, glowing curls and glaringly golden dress and gracefully took my hand, leading me in a dance. This mysterious visitor guided me into Shaun's bedroom down the hall as she hummed the tune of Mozart's variation of "Ah! Vous Dirais-Je Maman" as we approached Shaun's crib. Curiously, her energy dissipated at the sight of him and she looked to me with a flash of fear in her eyes. "Your nightly lullabies brought me the courage to not let him wonder but I fear I his disappointment when he discovers I am no diamond in the sky," she said as she floated back into the night before Shaun could open his eyes. From then on, I've never wondered what or who that star is but how she is.
In the End
You were caught in the undertow,
pulled deep beneath waves of woe.
These were wounds you could not heal.
That sensitive soul perhaps your Achilles' heel.
I remembered your concert was my first.
Father took me, though he was terribly unversed.
Your music spoke to my teenage distress
Meteora unearthed all that I had repressed.
It was Chris' birthday - weren't you friends?
Was this a message were you trying to send?
Were the walls closing in? When did this begin?
What morbid, unruly thoughts crawled underneath your skin?
In the end, I suppose
This is the path that you chose?
A step too close to the edge, we didn't see you break
We didn't know what was at stake.