And I’m falling, I’m falling

Into a bitter abyss

I’m falling I’m falling

I could have never imagined this

I thought with time things would change

But years have past and it all remains the same

And I’m falling I’m falling

Deeper and faster than before

They tell me to “Let go”

They say “It’s just a show”

How could they possibly know

I see you, I see me

We will never be free

And I’m falling, I’m falling

Into a bitter abyss

Will this ever change?

Will it always be this way?

Will I die when a stray bullet comes my way?

Will my sexuality be my undoing?

And I’m falling, I’m falling

Into a bitter abyss

I can’t save you

You can’t save me

I never imagined this

And I’m falling, I’m falling…

Until now I'd lost all hope. The elves had all fallen. The fairies had never shown. The dwarves looked like they planned on giving up. We were losing the war. Hope was a thing of the past. Then I saw her riding up on a unicorn. Sword in hand, this human woman, the only human on this side of the way besides myself. She looked as though she could be a goddess. I knew in an instant that we could win this war. Though I was uncertain why. Why would I have such faith in this one soul? I believe it was the look in her eyes. She looked determined. I knew what we were fighting for. I knew in this moment that determination can bring hope back. I picked up my sword. Death may take me but if it did at least I will have died fighting. Suddenly along side the only other human, I had hope. Maybe the fairies would join us. Maybe the elves hadn't all fallen. Maybe the dwarves weren't going to give up. I knew for certain I wasn't going to give up. Hope. It might just win this war after all.

Without you by my side, I don't know how I'll get by.

Without you to hold at night, I don't know if I'll be alright.

Without you to cuddle me, I don't know how I'll be.

With you gone, I don't know how to go on.

I miss the way you cuddled into my lap when I'd come home.

How you never made me feel alone.

I miss how you'd sleep in my bed each night.

And made sure I'd sleep alright.

I miss how you'd give me kisses randomly.

I miss you, can't you see?

I miss your soft meow.

I know I'll be okay but I don't know how.

Without you I'm lost, I'll be found but at what cost?

Without you I'm falling apart, you're still a part of my heart.

You look at me

And all I see

Is emptiness

A dark soul

Like I’m looking into the abyss

You don’t remember do you

Do you?

Do you still hear my scream

When I woke up from a dream

It turned into a nightmare real fast

They say its in the past

But I still see you standing over me

I still feel the revulsion

Of what you were making my hand do

I thought I was better

Okay at least

One look at you

And I was back on my knees

Begging God please

Take my life

Make me forget

Make this torment end

I blamed myself

For years it had to be my fault

7 years old

I blamed myself

No punishment did you receive

But I receive mine every day

Even when I think I am okay

But I’m not

I never will be

You took that innocence from me

I stopped keeping you around

What good would you be to me now

But oh when I see you on TV

Or in person I think it is meant to be

I just want to feel your touch one more time

Remember when I was yours and you were mine

I miss the sweet touch of your blade to my skin

Maybe we could do that again

The way you so deliciously cut in to me

It made me feel free

But I don’t keep an X-ACTO knife close by

Because if I do I might just die

I’d crave your kiss every night

I wouldn’t be able to fight

I’d let the blood flow

I’d have to just let go

The truth is

My smile is bright

But it doesn't reach my eyes

The truth is

You won't notice

You never do

The truth is

I show the world my love

But I don't feel theirs

The truth is

You think I'm happy

But inside I am dying

The truth is

I can't keep living like this

I might just die

The truth is

I might want to

Three weeks.

It kind of makes it hard to speak.

Three weeks.

Even then it was only for two minutes.

You wanted something.

I couldn't give.

So three weeks.

It has come to this.

What will happen when I'm gone?

When three weeks doesn't seem so long?

What will happen then?

Who will you turn to?

Three weeks.

I'm not sure I can stick around

Three weeks.

Cutting in to me so deep.

Three weeks.

Maybe I should just let go.

Maybe I should just say goodbye.

But what's the point.

Three weeks.

There is no need.

It is done.

It died three weeks ago.

Hope you can forgive me

For being born

I know I didn’t choose to be

And you’re the one that gave birth to me

But I still hope you can forgive me

Hope you can forgive me

For not dying that day

I tried, I honestly did

But I guess I even fail at this

Hope you can forgive me

For the days I find happiness

Those seem to hurt you the most

I never wanted to cause you pain

Hope you can forgive me