Sampling little dabs,
dribs and drabs
of all that's left,
guilty of theft -
stealing my heart,
its ugly head
my bawdy red lips.
lightning sparks on
inside my core,
setting me aflame.
I scrub you off
but you stick
in cellophane strips,
tight velcro grips,
my eager skin.
You drain my brain
your bones enmeshed,
inside my body,
enveloping my soul,
clouding my spirit,
driving me INSANE.
#Challenge #Derailed #Crazy
we'd meet in the swimming pool with blue-green square tiled walls and no water
every tuesday at 2am
and we'd lie down spreadeagled on the floor of the pool
wondering what it would feel like
if we were lying flat under 15,000 litres of water
and then you'd laugh
and i'd laugh too but only because you laughed
and i love the way your eyes crinkle
and you'd say that it's nice somehow
to dream about being trapped but actually being free
because you usually stay awake at night
thinking of things the other way round,
trying to run away from life
and i would say me too
and then we'd be still and silent for a little while
just being happy with eachother and forgetting about all there is to think and care about.
one day you pulled me closer
and i rolled to your side
and you pressed your mouth to my ear and whispered
my momma found out about us last tuesday
and she told me not to come here anymore
and this might probably be the last time we can be like this so
can i give you a kiss?
your kiss would be our very first and last kiss
that i had dreamt about for many nights
so i said yes, of course, i love you
and i wanted to close my eyes but i didn't because i had to see you.
it tasted like the cheap mint chewing gum
that you get from the corner store near your house
and that i would start to get
every friday onwards
because i never wanted to forget the taste of you.
and then we would stop staring into the night sky through the metal wire
chain-link fence beside the pool
and we'd climb out
and we'd hug because we were tired of waiting till tuesdays to hold eachother
and then we would start making our ways home,
out of the alley, you and i walking half of the highway
then splitting up down two smaller streets
then turning and turning farther away from where we remember seeing the other
until i wouldn't be able to chase after you and find you
even if i tried
because you'd be too far gone
and that's how things were.
that's how things were supposed to be.
i could never find you and you could never find me.
we could only ever find the street sign where our lives intersected
and trust in the other to be there too
and pretend for a night
that we would never lose eachother
and that we'd always be kids
and that we'd always live where we did
and that we could always come to this street sign at 2am on tuesdays when we needed a friend
and that our parents would never find out
and that we could hold eachother for as long as we ever wanted or needed to
and that we loved eachother
didn't we love eachother so, so much?
didn't our love transcend the two small worlds we each lived in?
wasn't our love an infinity
that would never, ever die?
#verylongpost #poetry #congratsifyougotthroughthat #sweetyounglovethatneverlasts
Wash Away the Pain
In the dark
The shadows are my friend
They hide my pain
Rain falls gently
Calming my fears
As I reminisce of gentle raindrops
And summoning a smile
The rain is my friend
It washes away the hurt
And although it washes away the ink
The scars stay
A reminder of the pain
And a reminder to keep my head up
And catch the gentle drops
Because rain will come and go
The pain will come and go
And it's time for it to go
Why do you make me feel like a stranger in my own home.
As soon as I walk through the door, I feel all alone.
You sit there with a smile on your face, then you open your mouth.
The shit that comes out doesn't make sense, I have to run South.
I have to go take a walk or hop in the car, I have to get away from you, I have to run far.
I don't like to be around you, I don't like your face, I take one look at you and shake my head in disgrace.
You have changed so much in these few short years, since we moved away, you brought me here to a new state and here we have to stay.
You brought us here for a new start, to get away from it all, but instead of getting closer, we just grow apart.
You look at me with anger, you yell at me so loud, I take a deep breathe and ask you with pleading eyes, are you proud.
You are a angry man, just go away, I want you to leave and I want to stay.
This is my home now, a stranger no more, I want you to go, I don't want you here, you can leave by the door.
As I see you walk away, now I can relax, I finally can breathe again, I no longer feel attacked.