IM SORRY

I want you to know that I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't care...The meds don't seem to work anymore. If I miss a day or two the feelings don't change and I don't seem to want to take them either.

So mama, I'm sorry that I couldn't make you happy

daddy, I'm sorry I didn't stick around much

Step mom, I'm sorry I didn't tell you how much I really loved you

Stepdad that goes for you too

My brother and sisters, I'm sorry I didn't hang around more often.

Dalton, The love of my life I am so sorry that you had to deal with such a horrible person.

Grammy and Papa, I'm sorry I wasn't there to make you guys smile more

Nate, I'm sorry I wasn't a better cousin

Gaggie and Papa, I'm sorry I didn't see the simple things in life like you tried to get me to do.

My aunts and uncles, I'm sorry I didn't check in as often as I should have.

To everyone else I'm sorry that I didn't mention, I know who you are and I think about you a lot but I never made an effort to say hello or to tell you that you mean so much to me. I don't want anyone to have to deal with someone as depressed and anxious as I have been for the past 7 years. Please forgive me for what I am about to do and know that I'll be it's great grandpa once again. He will take care of me.

I love all of you

I'm sorry

goodbye

Jess...